the nun and the runaway crimal ruv x sarv

Chapter 10

Ruv's POV :

Sarv was looking at me suspiciously for the rest of the day, but I pretended not to notice, she badly wanted to know what I had planned for her but she didn't know how to bring it up, which was funny. But she knew well that I wouldn't tell her, if I was able to grin, then I was be grinning the whole day but I guess that's one good advantage to not smile, or else Sarv would force it out of me. Maybe she was threading carefully, not making any quick assumptions that her alibi could be correct. She could be pounding whether she could be right and truly stay devoted to her statement or just reject it loath fully. But I could never see into Sarv's head, even though I know her so well, and I am truly devoted to that but the downside is that I love her so much that my mind seems like a fog, that I can see Sarv when upclose, and that's just the simple facts that are simplified but as you veer away from those simple thoughts about her and start to think more deeper, deeper than any ocean if your really that devoted into loving her, but then you're in competition with me. But then as you think about the complicated things about her, like relationships and alibis and how delicate a friendship can really hold the true bonds  of trust, and with one small mistake, it could leave it shattered to bits, which represents the heart of love and value. Surely I did not want Sarv to feel like that did I? Should I be happy that I saved our friendship and that we keep our honour and care for each other intact? Or should I have been doleful, which wreaths my heart like a thorned plant that surrounds my heart like a rope, cutting more deeper into my heart, and with every beat of a second of the time I have left to confess is wasted and that those thorns slah into my heart  like a hungry wolf eating its prey. Overtime, the long term effect results in the thorns being intact into my heart like its a piece of me and no matter how hard I try, I can't pry it apart. Maybe this had developed overtime, ever since I was a young, innocent infant who had the freedom as a wild boar. And with great responsibility comes great consequences if not treated correctly, as  Iearned how to steal carelessly and learn how to fend for myself. I know that the my love had been in the same position, we were each handed an opportunity. But I chose the wrong hand of it and so I merely developed the wrathful thorn that now surrounds my heart, and with me bottling up my feelings, I feel it getting even tighter, I find it harder to breathe at each passing day as the clouds roll overhead in a sequence endlessly on repeat. All I can say is.... Sarv, one day I'll promise that I'll express my feelings towards you, and I'll make sure of that but for the time being, I'd rather face the hardship of neutralisation towards you but keep in mind that I'm doing this for you, to prevent you from disappointment...

A//N: okkkk idk what I just wrote there.. Ummm I'm cringing at this... Also its like 3am qwp so yeah, I can bé funny XD also hope I didn't bore your socks off