Let Me Love You | XIAODERY

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The moment the sun shines into Xiaojun's room, his eyes lit up. He vividly recalled being sick suddenly yesterday, which was unusual for him.

He's well, and he even kept on staying in their house for the whole four days to avoid seeing his best friend. Then, what caused him to become sick?

Speaking of the devil, Xiaojun remembered his memories of Hendery before falling asleep and waking up sick the next day. He also dreamed of him, and everything that happened to him seemed weird to him.

Did he get sick because of him?

How is that possible?

Xiaojun touched his forehead down to his neck to check if he's still burning hot. Thankfully, he's not anymore and surprisingly, he feels well.

Did someone take care of him?

His hunch was right when he went down to their kitchen and found Hendery making breakfast for him while talking to his sister on the phone.

For once, he didn't doubt Hendery. Despite their conflicts, whenever Xiaojun needed help, Hendery would come to his aid. He does the same to him, and at the end of the day, they make up and share their favorite mint-choco ice cream.

Their friendship is the most important to Xiaojun. Honestly, it's not hard to love Hendery but dating him never crossed his mind. He just finds him very attractive sometimes and blushing for no reason and even scolds himself for thinking that way.

And Xiaojun thinks the one he likes is Lucas.

Or is it possible that he used to like Hendery but didn't mind, or because he is simply unaware?

"Please tell Lucas that I am unavailable. I won't be able to accompany him today, bye!" And then he hung up the phone.

Hendery sensed a familiar presence and turned to face Xiaojun. He was clearly watching him, and he seemed to be deep in thought as well.

His plan was to make him breakfast and leave quietly but apparently, he woke up.

"Hey Dejun." He smiled awkwardly. "Good morning." He added. "I know you probably don't want to see me now but your mom asked me to check you because she's worried that you're sick."

Xiaojun pursed his lips and nodded, and leaned on the chair while staring at the breakfast that Hendery had prepared for him.

Strange. Why does he want to cry?

Is it because he's missed him?

He won't deny that, but he can't say it out loud just like that.

Apart from that, Hendery continues to talk to him as though nothing has happened. It frustrates his heartache.

"Thank you." He said this as he was about to take Hendery's hand and kiss it, but he immediately stopped himself.

It had been his habit, but now is probably not the time to do so.

Hendery seems to have realized that Xiaojun has stopped himself and sighs. He believes that his best friend now hates him.

"How do you feel?"

"I'm fine. I g-guess."

"Great." Hendery's lips were pressed into thin lines, and he was continually fidgeting. He just wants to talk to him, but Xiaojun is too distant.

Sighs the younger. "I'm sorry, Dejun-ah. I know our friendship means a lot to you, and I know how much you cherish it, so here I am, ruining it because of how I feel. Believe me, I have no idea where it all began." Hendery sighed and bit his lower lip. "I understand if you hate me and want to push me away. It's all right. I don't deserve you in the first place, and I believe you'll be fine even though I'm not with you."