T22 Now Live

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Waking up in the morning is the hardest part of the day. I sit in bed for hours on my phone and set 20 alarms every 10 minutes because I just can't get up. When I finally do get out of bed I am running late for work. I scrummage through the pile of clothes on my floor and smell a shirt to see if it is alright to wear. Once I find an outfit I'm ready for the day. Gross right. Welcome to the life of a depressed/anxious 24 year old. My mom died when I turned 3 so I didn't really know her that well, and my dad was a good father and tried his best but because he was a single parent he mainly worked to provide for me so I didn't get to see him much. When I turned 20 he passed away due to a heart attack but my aunt always says that he died of a broken heart. I don't really see much of my family now that I am older and they don't really try to see me either so I kinda gave up. I dated a drunk and abusive guy named Jason who ended up taking my virginity away from me without my consent. Yep, I have a pretty miserable life.

It's finally Friday so that means that I get off of work early. I work at the local bar in my small town and get paid just enough to pay the bills for my small apartment and my little 2017 Nissan. I open up early to allow all the regulars come in to drink. Most of them come every day and spend the whole day here. I like to call them alcohol enthusiasts. They drink to relax, sure you might think they are alcoholics but to me they are just normal kind people. The bar that I work for doesn't tolerate violence or disrespect. I'm the only girl that works here and all my coworkers are here to back me up any second.

All the guests arrive and sit in their usual seats. "Hey Jenna." They all said to me. I replied with an enthusiastic "Hi" back as they all sat down. I give them their drinks and ask them how their week has been. The usual small talk leads to larger conversations that end in a few laughs or tears. In the end these people really understand me. I've been in their shoes a year ago. I would drink 24/7 to forget all the shit I was going through. There were days that I drank so much it could've killed me. That's part of the reason why I did it.

The work day was slowly coming to an end as I said by to all of the regulars and my coworkers. I head back to my apartment and go to unlock the door to see that it was already opened. I set my bag down quickly and slowly open the door. I look inside to see my ex sitting at the kitchen table.

"What the fuck are you doing in my home?!" I yell at him. He looks high.

"I just wanted to see the most beautiful girl in the world." He said with a smirk. He definitely was high.

"No get out of my apartment now!" I said furious. I can't stand seeing him here. He is part of the reason why my depression got worse. He just shook his head and laughed.

"Oh my dear innocent Jenna. I have no idea why you are mad at me for taking your virginity away. I knew you wanted me." He glared at me. A silent tear rolled down my face as he stepped closer to me. He lifted his hand up to my face and I flinched. "Don't be afraid... I just want to hold that pretty face of yours." I sat there quietly. I didn't know what to do. More tears rushed down my face. When he got close enough I punched him in the nose. "What the fuck?!" he yelled. I throw him out the door and slammed it behind him.

"You won't get away with this you bitch!" He yelled back at me through the door. He heard his angry footsteps stomp down the hall. I fell down the wall crying, only not silently this time.

About thirty minutes later I change my clothes and put my hair in a messy bun. I go to the fridge to find something to eat but there was nothing there. I then look in my freezer to find a pint of ice cream. I sit on the couch and put on a movie. I wanted to cry more. I wanted to let my feelings out. But I just sat there. Staring at the tv. I ended up only eating two spoonfuls of ice cream then I felt like I was going to throw up.

I walk slowly to my bedroom dragging my feet on the ground when I get a text.

Lexi: Hey Jen. I miss you so much. I know we haven't talked in a while but what are you doing Sunday?

Lexi was my best friend. We've known each other since we were babies but now that she works for a big company and never has time to do anything.

Jen: Nothing. Literally nothing.

Lexi: Well me and you are going to an autograph signing. I got tickets from my mom and she thinks that we should go.

Jen: Okay but for what???

Lexi: You will never believe me...

Jen: Just spill

Lexi: HARRY POTTER!!!!!

I laughed to myself quietly. Lexi was the biggest Harry Potter fan that I knew. I didn't really know much but I watched the movies with her a couple of times and thought some of the characters were cute.

Jen: Of course it would be Harry Potter. Haha do you know who is all signing?

Lexi: Yesssss. You already know that I would know who!!!! Daniel Radcliffe, Rupert Grint, Louis Cordice, and TOM FREAKING FELTON!!!!!!

I don't know if you could tell but her favorite character is Draco Malfoy. I don't see what she see's in him. I mean he's cute and all but he was still evil no matter what.

Jen: Damn someone's excited. Lol. Anyways I guess I will see you sunday. What time?

Lexi: I will pick you up at 10 am so we can get starbucks and be there by noon. It's a pretty far drive. Get some rest! Love you

Jen: Okay love you too.

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a/n: Okay so I am not someone who writes long chapters so if that is what you are here for I am sorry. :) I'm not sure if this is going to be a slow burn or if I am going to go right into the juicy stuff haha.