A/n: you're gonna want to get Google translate ready for this one cuz there's a lot of Spanish in it
Tw: su1cidal thoughs, mention of sh, mention of fainting, mention of panic attack 770 words ________________
Quackitys pov: We head back to the car after being turned down by Badboyhalo. "Quackity, I really want to right now." Karl said quickly, as if he didn't want to say it. "Want to what Karl?" "Ya know" Karl said whilst making a scissors motion with his fingers. I knew what he meant then. I picked up a pen and handed it to him. "What am I meant to do with this?" "I heard drawing on yourself is meant to help with them types of urges"
Sapnaps pov: I woke up on the living room couch with Skeppy next to me. Skeppy didn't notice I was up for a hot minute until I moved a bit. I wasn't fully awake from whatever happened but my memory was failing me. "Bad, I think he's waking a bit." "Really?" "Yeah" Bad then comes in with a hot tea and a piece of paper. My memory was still a bit foggy but I rememberd some sort of note Bad had handed to me. "What happened, Why am I on the couch." "Well.... You had a bit of a panic attack and then you blacked out" Bad said whilst handing me the tea he had made. "I remember the panic attack but why-how did I black out." "Lack of sleep, Lack of food. These things take a toll." Skeppy chimed in. I guess he's right, these types of things do take a toll but it's not my fault and plus I don't think it's going to get any better now. "I Guess you're right. What's with the paper Bad?" Bad looked at Skeppy with a half concerned look and a half 'do I tell him?' type look.
Quackitys pov: We're halfway home. Karl now with pen all the way up his arms and me having thoughts of my own.
He hates you
You're the reason he left
You're the reason Karl is hurting himself
Just do it
You know you want to
Just kill your self
It will only take a minute
Just crash the car
kill yourself
Kill Yourself
KILL YOURSELF
You won't be missed
My thoughts were interrupted by Karl. "big q, Big Q, Quackity, EARTH TO QUACKITY HELLO." "Si, si, lo siento." "Ok what's wrong, you only speak in Spanish when your scared or nervous." "No estoy hablando español...... Shit." "Yeah, so what's happening." "M-my heads playing tricks on me or something, I'm not thinking straight." "Why, what's it saying." "It's telling me to do some fucked up shit." "Like.......?" "I really don't want to talk about it right now." "Fair enough." We arrived home by now and going inside. Karl went to stream as he hadn't in a while. Whilst I was left to ponder in my thoughs.
Badboyhalos pov: "It's a note from Karl and Quackity, you don't have to read it if you don't want to." "No, no, I want to read it." So I gave him the note.
Sapnaps pov: Dear sapnap, if you're reading this than you obviously didn't want to see us, makes sense. I wouldn't want to see us either. We just wanted to apologise, we were complete and udder honks and we understand if you don't want to be with us anymore. We really miss you Sapnap and we w̶a̶n̶t̶ need you to come home.
Love from, Karl & Quackity
Tears prickled in my eyes as I pulled out my phone to text Karl. To my surprise he was streaming so I decided to text Quackity instead. It takes a while to send so I just left it. I looked outside and it was already dark out. "Ummm, guys? How long was I out for?" "Couple of hours I think" "WHAT!"
Karl's pov: I finish streaming and I went to go scare Quackity because why not. I looked around the house for him and then I found him in our room. I opened the door quietly but when I got in I saw him on the floor beside our bed with his back to the door. He had his hands gripped to his hair, soft talking to himself in Spanish. "El te odia, ellos te odian. Ellos no te aman. Solo te mantienen cerca porque sienten pena por ti." I decided to use the voice thing on Google translate. "Nadie te extrañará. ¿Debería suicidarme?" he stopped so I put the last thing he said into Google Translate....
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My vision became blurred as tears formed in my eyes. "Quackity......" I said whilst holding my phone in his direction so he could read it. He sprung to his feet when he heard my voice. ________________ Sorry this took so long because if im being honest, I completely forgot about this book.
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