the fear of trusting people due to past experiences
♡..♡
"Arrie, don't nod, don't interrupt just say yes to whatever he says. He isn't strict but his mood swings are worse than a pregnant woman. Go and knock now.", Alessandra blurted and gently pushed me towards the door.
I hadn't even knocked yet as the door swung open. To my surprise, there was no one awaiting me at the other end.
Weird
As soon as I crept inside, someone slammed the door close. Moments later, I was engulfed in a gentle hug and I could feel some moisture on my forehead.
What's up with all of them hugging me suddenly?
"I missed you.", he broke the embrace to smile cheerfully. "Don't even think about revealing to them that I cried."
Dude-???
"Come sit", his voice unexpectedly changing to a higher pitch.
"Would you mind giving us some privacy Ales?", as he pointed towards the evident shadow of Alessandra.
"Alessandra!"
"Ugh! I am going!" Alessandra huffed from the other side.
"Sorella how are you?" shifting his attention towards me.
"Uh, I am fine how about you?", I awkwardly said while rubbing my hands.
"Ales must have told you some pretty scary things about me, right? She would have also told you about some rules. Well, I would appreciate it if you adhere to those rules. As a matter of first importance, your protection is vital however I need no secrets with regards to your security and wellbeing. I would be consistently accessible in the event that you need to simply talk or offer your sentiments yet on the off chance that I am not accessible, Leo and Ales are additionally there.", his words were laced with affection.
The affection I had never felt before.
"I can't say anything about swearing as I myself use it but keep it low and with those siblings who are comfortable with it. And as I can see, you are healthy but- but not that healthy so I would appreciate it if you ate in the right amounts to become more healthy, you get it right?"
"Yes, I get it."
"Great, I have just a single additional inquiry. Is your room okay with you, anything you need?"
"Can you remove the mirrors in my room?" I answered without giving my reply a second thought.
♡..♡
We were supposedly having a family dinner in which 2 sets of eyes were scowling at me, 1 was only interested in eating and two were frowning when I slightly pushed my plate.
I was simply confounded by a certain something: they didn't chide me when I began to eat without their consent. The last time I ate without permission did not result well.
I wasn't adjusted to this sort of life, just yesterday I had made due on a hard slice of bread. Having such blessings was a thing I had not envisioned. Staying in the lower class made me acknowledge how these blessings were underestimated by the people.
Interrupting my thoughts, Leonardo asked everyone to introduce themselves. Leonardo was 26, Lorenzo was 24, and Alessandra was 22. The twins weren't that eager in introducing themselves before Leonardo shot them a glare.
They both looked at me with such hatred, providing encouragement to the demons inside me.
The demons were now acting up, my body required alleviation from torment, my heart needed to bring down the measure of burden I was putting it to.
No, I couldn't cry at least not in front of them,
"May I be excused?", I needed a positive reply right now, my mental and physical health both needed relief.
After receiving a yes from Leonardo's side, I made a dash to the room.
♡..♡
The water burned my skin however I was just lost in the realm of torment. Everything helped me to remember him, how he used to teach me. He had contaminated my life, even when he is dead, I am as yet terrified of him.
I tried so hard to cry, to pour my pains out but it was so difficult. He had made it difficult for me. Whenever I used to tear up, he would whip me more until I would eventually pass out.
Changing into the sweater, I grabbed a pillow and laid on the floor.
My psyche by and by revealing to me things I wasn't, my heart compressing me to cry yet I proved unable to, my body crying from all the thrashing yet I was unable to rest.
To consider the big picture, the barter system is as yet working on the planet, with the exception of now it isn't reasonable in any way.
The things which are presently traded are individuals and feelings.
The rich get anything they need, the awful individuals get the beneficial things, the poor can get nothing they need and the great individuals get the awful things.
The people who called them my siblings today did not deserve a broken person like me. The affection they showed today shouldn't be for me. I could only possibly fear the outcomes when they become more acquainted with my past.
Reality consistently uncovers itself regardless of how hard I will attempt to conceal it.
At some point or another, they will see the scars and bruises.
With these thoughts in my mind, I was lured to a flashback.
Oops! This image does not follow our content guidelines. To continue publishing, please remove it or upload a different image.
Author's dumb note
Hello, there peeps! How you all at?
Can you send light to my dark day by pressing a shiny star? Pretty please *puppy eyes*
QOTD
Would you rather be able to time travel within a certain range or be able to freeze time?
