the connection

"No Louis, please just leave":Chapter 11

Elle POV

I woke up to the sun seeping through my blinds. I squinted my eyes to look at my alarm clock, it was 10 am. I rolled over to check my phone which was charging behind my bed. My screen brightness was up far too high and hurt my eyes, which kicked in the terrible hangover I was going to be dealing with all through out this day of cleaning. yay for throwing parties. I had a really fun time though....I think. I sat up, only to let out a loud grunt from my headaches pain, so I laid back down and played with Louis fringe lightly so he wouldn't wake up. He was so cute while he slept, even if he was hung over. I laid there for about 10 minutes, just admiring his adorableness. I had to be brave and get up and get the pain killers, so I took everything slowly, and finally reached the kitchen. I grabbed all the panadol we had in the house, and 3 glasses of water. I took mine downstairs  I walked into the guest bedroom to find Annabelle and Harry on the complete opposite sides of the bed, all tangled in covers and heavy snores. I giggled to myself slightly and even took a picture before I left the pain relievers and waters on the bed side table. I then brought Louis his water and panadol and left it on my right bed side table for him. I brushed my teeth because my breath was vile, then laid back down; considering my parents weren't going to be home until 6 and I had plenty of time to clean. I snuggled into Louis chest and sighed contently. Hangover cuddling with Louis, this is the life. I dozed off for about a half hour only to be awoken by Louis grunting loudly. I fluttered my eyes open to see Louis shutting his eyes and rubbing his temples. "Theres panadol on the bed side table for you" I said with a grin. He sighed with relief and took the medicine. He looked back at me and leaned in for a kiss, but I backed away. "Woah, go brush your teeth first mister!" He gave me a puppy dog look, indiciating that he really wanted to kiss me but I didn't fall for it. I pointed towards my bathroom and said "no kisses until you brush your teeth and that's that!" He got up and walked very slowly to the bathroom. While he was getting rid of his terrible breath, I brushed my rats nest of a thing i'd like to call 'my hair' out, and sat back on the bed, and opened my laptop. He came back and got back under the covers and scooted close to me, leaning his head on my right shoulder. I was scroling through my twitter feed when Louis whispered in my ear "may I kiss you now?" I smelt his icy breath and it sent shivers down my spine. He left soft kisses on my jawline and my neck "Louis, i'm trying to scroll-" but I couldn't speak when he found my soft spot on my neck. I threw my laptop down by my feet and looked him deep in the eyes. I smirked and whispered "wanna play this game?" I gave him a devilish smile before stroking his cheek and kissing his collarbones, his neck, his jawline, everything. I crawled on top of him and kissed him hard, running my hands through his hair. he ran his hands up and down my sides, causing me to arch my back from pleasure. I smiled through the kiss, but I was going to win this. I gave him love bites and finally found his soft spot. He moaned "you win" and I rolled off of him and smiled at him innocently, like nothing had happened. "I'm not sure if you're a devil or an angel.." He said, having a confused look on his face. "I'm a little bit of both Lou, you get the best of both worlds" I said, proud of my Hannah Montana reference. "Did you really just quote Hannah Montana?" He said, laughing at me. He then started to mock me and sing 'best of both worlds' and I buried my face in my hands, because I had a feeling he was going to tell the boys about this. I heard a *snap* of a camera and shot my head up to see Louis taking pictures of me being embarrasssed, he was snickering to himself. "Hey, it's not funny!" I said, trying to grab his phone out of his hand. "It's already on twitter, nothing more you can do now." He said, throwing his phone into my lap. I saw the tweet he had left up saying "Elle just quoted Hannah Montana and is now so embarrassed!" and the photo of me hiding my face. "Not a problem, it's not a big deal." I said, playing it cool. I looked at him for a long time, only to burst out laughing.

"I love your laugh, it's unique and not fake...like.." Louis said, trailing off with his thoughts. I gave him a sincere look."Louis, she's in the past. She brings no help to your present or your future." I said, moving closer to him so our knees were touching. He had his head in his hands, and I put my hand on his knee. "If..us... is too much for you right now, we can take a break if that's what you need. I don't mind." I said, hoping he wouldn't notice the complete lie I had just told him. I would mind. A LOT.  "No no,you're the only thing helping me get over Sarah." He said, looking down at the bed. "hold on...Is that all I am to you? Just somebody who can give you good advice and help you get over Sarah?" I said, not sure what that meant. Should I be hurt? Should I feel used? Is this a good thing? I had no idea, but I kept my cool. "No no no, that's not what I meant!" He said, shaking his head. "Well, what did you mean? Do I even mean anything to you?" I said, not wanting to cry. "Yes, you mean so much to me Elle, but I'm not sure if I'm over Sarah yet. And I feel like i'm only complicating things." I sat there in disbeleif, not sure what to say next. "So what do you want to do, about us?" I said in my smallest voice, not wanting to show any weakness or vulnerability. Louis raked his hands through his hair and just shook his head. "I don't know, Elle. I really don't know. I shouldn't have jumped into this right out of my relationship, it's my fault. I'm so sorry.." We sat there for a long time in silence, unsure of what to say next. "I'm sorry, I complicated this. I shouldn't have gotten so close to you. This is why  I don't let my guard down. My mistake, I won't mess up your life again." I said, my voice quivering. "Elle, no thats-" "No Louis, please just leave."