In August it was one year since Danny had died and changed everything. In a way it has made me look at the world in a new perspective. I see more pain, more sorrows, more suffering. I see life in a way I haven't before. That life is shitty. But you will met wonderful people, and they will change your life in so many ways, good and bad. There isn't one day that goes by where I don't think about Danny. And I don't think I will ever stop. Everyday I wish I had just one more day to tell him how much I miss him. How much he meant to me and how much I loved him. But sometimes the most important things we have to tell someone, are the things that we don't really mean until we don't have them anymore to express. I used to hear his voice in my head all the time, giving me advice, but I don't hear him anymore. I think it's because my heart doesn't want to break anymore. It wants to heal, to allow myself to be close to people I love again. I tell my family how much I love them everyday because who knows the next time you will see them. The next time you will hear their voice. Don't wait until tomorrow. Please, you never know how much someone truly means to you until they are gone.
If you are feeling alone, or depressed or anything, talk to someone. Please. You are so loved if not by the people close to you but by those who are miles from you. You are worth so much more than what people tell you. Don't hide your feelings, you're not crazy or anything. There is so much that someone has to tell you but they are scared. The pain of losing someone is unbearable and I wish Danny would have told me or someone. I don't blame him, but it hurts. I'm still depressed. I'm still suicidal. I still cut. The reason I'm alive, is because I don't want anyone to feel the way I felt when he died. I want people to know how it affects the ones you love. I don't expect people to change how they feel but I hope that maybe you will at least talk to someone who cares. Talk to someone who will be there at three in the morning when you feel you cant take it anymore. I will be there for you. No one deserves to feel like they are nothing, or that they don't feel they need to be on this earth. Please talk to someone, if you feel down or anything. Stay strong, you're worth the fight I promise. I love you guys! Thanks!
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A/N: Wow this was really hard to write, after a few break downs, many tears, this story is finished. This is a true story, and I meant every word I said. Stay strong. Comment, vote, and all that good stuff.
