honey kisses

letters

letters.
tw: mentions of su*c1de

the ink touched the beige parchment, the crows standing on his window brim as he sighed. he looked at the crows who had curious eyes, gently cawing before flying to his porch light.

dear george,

it's 15th october, 2044.
i'm still not over you.
i miss your smile,
i miss your laugh,
i miss the way we used to talk in the night skies,
the atmosphere filling with love and bliss.

we used to whisper sweet nothings in eachother's ears.
pointing at the stars that we could see with our horrible eyesight.
i miss the way your lips felt on mine.
i miss your rosy cheeks,
your loving hugs,
the forehead kisses you gave me when i was feeling sad.

and since you're not here anymore,
you can't give me the forehead kisses.
we promised to die together,

i'm sorry.
i'm sorry for taking you for granted,
i'm sorry for not holding on sooner,
i'm sorry for being naive.
i'm sorry for walking out that door,
i'm sorry for leaving you alone in the house.
i'm sorry.

my love, i would destroy the world for you.
put myself in exile for you,
i would climb the highest mountains for you.

i want your sweet kisses and bliss.
i still remember,
you tasted like honey.
you dripped and melted under my touch.

i wish you were still here,
to see the world.
i wish i could describe the colours to you again.
i wish i could leave loving pecks on your face again.

at the same time,
i wish i was dead.
i tried every way for you,
i tried.
i tried harming,
i tried poisons,
why doesn't it work?

i'm sorry,
i'm sorry for not being there for you.
i'm sorry i never told you earlier.
i'm sorry,
i still have your sayings in my book.
i still read the chapter again and again,
i cant flip the page where it all ends.
so i'm sorry,
for not telling you sooner.
i'm sorry that i'm immortal.

dream xx

fin.