Time skip a day cuz why tf not
Kirigiri's POV:
Tomorrow is Celeste's last day, im praying that she lives... though it is a low chance. She hasn't been coughing as much as she usually does, so that's good. She has been more distant to me which is weird because she's surprisingly pretty clingy ever since we got to the hospital. Maybe she's not feeling well...
I glanced over at her, her back was towards me and she seemed to be scribbling on a paper. Curious, I glanced over her shoulder without her knowing. On the paper were a bunch of scribbled out stuff, under all the scribbles was writing
"Dear Kyoko"
I quickly looked away from the paper knowing I probably shouldn't see it. Is she.... really writing a goodbye letter?
"I'll be right back princess, I have to use the bathroom"
"Ok" Her voice was dry
I walked out the door then ran to the bathroom. Once I got into the bathroom I locked the door.
'Why is she in such bad shape now? everything was going fine yesterday' I kept on thinking the worst in my head
"ahah haha"
So much shit is going on I just found myself laughing, I can't take this, it's to much for me. Next thing I knew I was crying. I ran outside and sat in my car, I don't like crying in public places. 'wait.. what if todays her last day? what if they calculated wrong' again i started thinking the worst, which didn't help me to stop crying.. it just made it worst
"why, why, why, why, why, why"
I kept on saying that over and over, I was shaking. Why did it have to be Celeste? It could've been anyone. I put my forehead on the wheel, and just... screamed. I didn't know what else to do so I let it all out by screaming.
After a couple minutes I calmed down and cleaned myself up to hide the fact I was crying. I walked back into the room me and Celeste have been staying in, she was laying down on the bed on her phone
"Took you long enough" She giggled
"I love you"
"Oh, I love you too sweetheart" She smiled at me
Her voice was still dry, I laid down next to her and hugged her
"Why are you so clingy today?" She asked while looking at me
"Why are you not" I asked trying not to sound sad
"..." She didn't answer me
We sat there for a couple minutes, not looking at each other, she didn't hug back, not talking, and not on our phones.
"I guess i'll give you this now, I finished it already anyways" She said reaching the drawer she pulled out a paper... I new exactly what this was
I opened the letter and started reading it (um i dont have the talent to write a sad letter so im using a song called 'to you from me' by naethan apollo, you dont have to read the letter because its long af)
"Dear Kyoko,
I wanted to give you something you can remember me with so this letter is the best i can do, sorry I cant do more. Don't Forget me, ok? Now on to the part ive been working on
Even when we're miles apart
I have your voice but feel no touch
You are so close to my heart, but we're far from flesh and blood
See, in a world so full of dissonance, our harmony's a flood
Inside my heart, I don't need cards or flying doves to feel our... Magic
See, your smile makes me smile
Your laugh makes me laugh
If my journey on this path could ever lead to losing you
I know which path is not my path
You're a blessing from the skies
You're the thief that stole my mind
You're the reason why I think of you all the time
You're the little tiny bug that's found its way inside my ear
And now I can't think a thought without wishing you were here
And I know you don't care, I know that no one even asked
But you're who motivates me when I'm sad
You're the crush that I knew that I always wanted
But thought that I'd never have
Always missing my other half
That's youAnd if I had a shiny nickel
For every time I will missed you, I'd use them to buy the moon
Then sell the moon to North Korea
Then use all their fancy missiles
To blow craters in that moon until it spelled out our initials
Okay wait, that's absurd
Sorry, I'm bad with words
Let me start over
I guess what I'm trying to say
Ahh, I'm messing this up, I've thought about this for days
I just haven't found the guts
To tell you truly I'm in...Look
I'm not used to spending my time
Floating up on Cloud 9
With you up in my mind
I used to spend my summers there
It turned to every weekend
Now I find myself among the clouds
When I should be home sleeping
That's your fault
That's right, I blame you
I blame you for all my birthday wishes that came true
Ever since we started dating, I am not the same girl
I've changed for the better
I blame you for that too
I really think we got this
I won't talk to you how they talked
I'd hike a million miles, cause a thousand is a cakewalk
So give it to me straight(gAY)
I think it's meant to be
And you would think so too if you knew what you meant to meY'know, I could ramble on for hours
But the words would never match up perfectly
To show the power that you hold
I thought that Midas was a king
So how come ever since you've touched my heart
Everything has to turn to gold
You could still warm my heart if I lived up in the Arctic
And everything I felt was freezing cold
My dream is growing old... With you
But it's no longer "Yours Truly" that I'm writing at the end
It's "Love, Celeste XO, Until we meet again"
PS
You're perfect cause you always skip the BS
I really hope you smile when you see this
I'll really miss you
I love you ❤"
Tears were falling on the paper
"Goddammit Kyoko your getting the letter wet" She laughed also crying
I turned to her and pulled her in for a hug, I might of squeezed her to tight but she didn't seem to mind because she hugged back.
"Damn, your a god at writing, did you get Toko to write this?" I laughed putting my forehead against hers
"No" Was all she said, she was smiling
I would kill for that smile... I wanna see that smile for every second of my life.
"Kyoko.. If I don't wake up tomorrow, I want you to know I love you with every cell in my body and im so glad I met a hot ass goddess like you" She said knowing we have to go to bed
"A-alright.. I love you too." I said wiping my tears
"Goodnight"
"Night"
fun fact about me
at one point i was really low for my mentally state, like lower than it should be. And ofc that ended up with me breaking down at 3am, and during that breakdown i laughed like a fucking maniac. so ig that breakdown affected me cuz now i cant cry without laughing, its really annoying tbh.
also i was listening to a toko kinnie playlist and the first song was i love you like an alcoholic and bitch-✋😩 YESSSS
