𝖎'𝖑𝖑 𝖇𝖊 𝖍𝖊𝖗𝖊- 𝖆𝖓𝖓𝖆 𝖘𝖍𝖚𝖒𝖆𝖙𝖊

009

"you slept with who!?" dev yelled

" i- i fucked up." i did. and i hated myself for it

"damn right you did, anna is extremely upset because she thought that you guys could actually work out, she liked you Mia. She overcame her issues for you. what did you do? you slept with vinnie hacker. nice, mia. real nice" she walked off

"she was gonna wait for you, mia." sab said, and walked off.

i fell down on to the stairs and started crying, sobbing. i didn't even try to keep it in.

i was such a horrible person. a fucking horrible person.

i don't even remember what i was thinking when i decided to fuck up my life.

i hate myself so fucking much. why do i always have to mess it all up? 

its not even like i want to but it just happens and i feel so helpless about it.

why was i crying? i shouldn't be crying. i dont have the right to sit here and cry about the mistakes that i made. 

no fucking right.

~anna's pov~

mia and chases relationship was hard to explain, sometimes chase would be the best boyfriend in the whole world. and other times he would be a complete asshole and treat her like shit. im almost positive he's bipolar. Mia would always treat chase good, until the arguments. the dumb stupid arguments chase would start, at first mia fought back, she didn't let him treat her like that but after a while, she got tired of it, she would just let him yell at her, and he would yell. they would also break up every once in a while, when they did mia would always come back to him as soon as he snapped his fingers. don't get me wrong, he loved her too but obviously not enough, no matter how much she wanted the relationship to work, she was too in love with him. she loved him too much to the point where she couldn't be without him, they weren't necessarily toxic but it was just bad, for both of them.

i had a feeling that this time would be different, that she could be strong, she even thought so herself. we were so wrong.

the yelling had stopped. i heard a thump and crying, i knew who's crying it was but i couldn't bring myself to do anything about it.

then it stopped, it was quiet. i heard a knock on the door and my heart rate raised. i knew exactly who it was. fuck, i hate confrontation

i hesitated to answer but i got up and walked to the door, my hand went to the doorknob and for a second i hesitated but i just did it. i opened the door.

"anna." there she was, i almost felt bad, no. i did feel bad. her eyes were puffy, i could see new tears forming in her eyes. she was anxious. she was almost shaking.

"it was a-" she started but i didn't have any patience at all.         

"why?" i wanted to know why.

"before i tell you, i need you to just listen to me." she paused " yesterday night, i was at a gas station when- it sounds so fucking dumb, i was on tiktok and i just saw a stupid edit of you and jersey, it really does sound dumb but i- i just i just felt so dumb. i felt so dumb that somehow i ended up at the hype house, i convinced myself that i was there because i needed to talk to chase, that we needed to sort shit out or whatever but when i knocked on the door, he wasn't home and it was just stupid fucking vinnie hacker. i was initially gonna wait until chase got home but he just- he invited me into his room for a movie. and i know you don't want to hear this but he tried to kiss me, and i- i didn't even kiss him back but he just kept kissing me, so when he tried to take it further i just let him. and it might have been the worst mistake i've made because i honestly didn't think that it would hurt you." she said but i stayed quiet.

"i think we jumped into this too fast." i was right, literally the day she broke up with her boyfriend we confessed our feelings. i could tell she didn't agree."i think we need to be friends, no more, no less until your really over him, and you didn't need to be jealous of jersey then. we were just friends." 

she nodded her head and and walked out of me room.

~Mia's pov~

key word: were.

hey fuckers, sorry for this being short and for it taking so long but my mom made me go to california 

anywayys happy late fathers day to all those people whose dads fucking suck.🙃

i'll try to update soon but i honestly have no idea when the next one will be.