longing. (an embodiment of physical touch)

𝑺𝒐𝒖𝒍 𝑺𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒄𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈

"Eh, paano na? Ang dami ko pa gagawin like hello? Saka ko na asikasuhin iyan."

Ayayay, I couldn't finish writing this stupid essay. Kakasimula pa lang ng third quarter, papagawa na agad 'tong prof na ito. Pero anyways, who am I to resist the task? Eh para sa akin naman iyon. I still got big dreams and big boo- big SHOES to fill in.

Being a senior high ain't easy. I know preparation ito for tertiary level pero the amount of anxiety that rises up everytime may ibibigay sa amin na task? 'Yung thought na, Ano, papahirapan nanaman ulit kami para kunyari magaling? Mga ganon sis, kaloka.

Si mama kasi, may pinapaasikaso sa akin na mga documents, ready to print para sa ipopromote niya aroumd town. Ano, maghihintay pa ako ng ilang oras para maprint yung bwisit na 75 copies ng infographics ng company niya, kaysa sa essay ko na 500 words? Ganito ba talaga kapag wala kang moral support?

Lord, ang unfair ha.

Maya maya pa, pumasok itong si bunso sa kwarto ko na natataranta. "Can a kilo of feathers be as heavy as a kilo of nails? Yes, because they have the same weight. Hooh! These questions ain't making me."

Wow, sipag ah. Bilib talaga ako kay bunso, she could be smart and stressed at the same time, plus she could also be a dumbo in practicals.

"Woah hold on there, Sai-Sai. Here, inom ka tubig and let your brain rest for a while." Sabay abot ng tubig, I turned right to face my laptop para ipagpatuloy ang essay ko.

"Ate Dein naman eh, you know that I have a true or false quiz tomorrow. Kapag hindi ko naalala 'yung mga sinabi sa amin ni ma'am, I would fail." She pouted and grabbed my teddy bear to give her a little comfort.

"Bunso, you're still young to be stressed. Dapat nga ginagawa mong fun ang learnings mo. Like, listen to music or make a song out of your learnings. Promise, effective siya. It will also improve your creativity if doing so." Syrene looked at me and gave me the reassuring face.

"Promise ate? Effective 'yun?" I nodded and gave her a comforting hug.

Alam niyo, katuwa talaga si bunso. Siya 'yung tipong tatawag ng comfort tapos may sasagot agad sa kanya. Sana lahat ng tao ganoon, ano? Nang dahil sa mini moment namin, napawi yung stress ko. Woah, that's something.

By the way, speaking in front of you is Sydein Merfort. Can be Syd, can be Dein, can be yours. Oh pak! Kilig siya slight HAHAHA!

Itong essay kasi na pinapagawa sa amin is about "soul-searching". Ewan ko ba, trip ng prof namin tungkol agad sa love life ang trip. Pero sige, keribels na itey. Tutal I'm currently soul searching and and weird minsan kasi fail. Like, swipe-right na nga, hindi naman ginawa pabalik.

Gaya nga ng sabi ko kay Lord, ang unfair.

Hanggang bukas pa kasi 'yung deadline nito. I started this like yesternight kasi gabi rin siya ibinigay. With that, ang dami ko na nga nasulat, feeling ko there's something missing. Wala sa essay eh, parang nasa akin? Ang weird, ha. I don't like this.

That feeling when you know someone would come after you, but you still managed to find one. What I am trying to say is that people won't wait to be in love. They will find ways to make it all happen.

Oh, ilang words nadagdag. Mga 42 words, making it 384. So bakit may kulang pa rin? I don't know ha, but there's really something missing. Kagabi, hindi naman ganito 'yung nararamdaman ko. Siguro, hindi lang ako nakapag-morning stretch earlier.

Some souls are said to be sending chills down our spines, but when it comes to our romantic feelings, the thought of having a lost soul touching your feet would turn into a wandering soul touching you tenderly.