kiss?!? MIGHT DISCONTINUE I HAVE OTHER BOOKS I WANNA WORK ON

I don't know yet lmao

summary of last chapter: George got in a coma for a couple months and clay got a boyfriend but when his boyfriend met George he tried doing something unacceptable and clay yelled at his boyfriend to leave and never come back. then clays boyfriend killed his cat and then George brought clay to his room to rest and went to take a shower and the last words George said before leaving were "you don't have to smile, I know its fake."

third person pov surrounding clay then George&clay

clay laid there staring at his ceiling- "I know its fake" he said a loud what does that mean? does he know im depressed and I was abused from my ex? what does he know? should I  tell him my feelings? no. he doesnt love me like I love him. it'll will just be weird and mess everything up. he's just being nice.  he was so caught up in his thoughts to realize he was crying and that George was there 

"clay u alright??" George questioned "clay?" George soon realized clay was zoned out he did that a lot when alone. George went over to clay sitting on his bed pulling clay out of his thoughts

"oh! hey George w- who- when you get h-here?" he said wiping his tears quickly 

"ive been here for like 10 minutes are you ok?" 

George pov

I waited for a response and then suddenly felt a pair of lips on mine they were soft yet the kiss was rough, clay then pulled away iddmetiately apologizing I stared at him as tears streamed down his face as he continued to apologize I felt bad and grabbed his chin forcing him to look at me "stop. apologizing" I then pushed his face from mine and got up to get him water

"w-wait uhh actually never mind" I turned around when he said this and decided I wanted to know what was up "no clay tell me I won't mind"  I say walking back to the bed

"n-no it-its fine it doesn't mat-"

"Clay Wastaken." I say "everything you say matters to me and you wanna know why.... because I love you, don't interrupt me during this or I'll leave. im in love with you and have been since like the third time we talked online- now I figure you don't like me in that way but its fine if you don't but I need you to know since I can't take it any longer and by the way-" I put my and to his cheek and my thumb to his lips "your bleeding" I wipe the blood away and get up but instantly turn back around at the sound of clay

"George?" he says looking like he's gonna cry

"yes clay?" I say folding my arms, not cuz im mad but cuz im slightly horny and it kinda hurts

"I know your hard" he says smirking looking at my crotch and back into my eyes 

"I- clay!!" I scream as he leaps at me "what the fuck!?!?" I laugh running away

"COME HERE GEORGIE!!!!"he screams with his iconic wheeze causing him to stop for air I run at him full speed and push him on the couch with his back facing the couch and me on his crotch 

"g-george" he stuttered-cute- "yes dream" I say as I start slowly grinding. I grind on him for about like 5 minutes a moaning mess and then he grabs my throat "c-clay!" I moan

a/n: it for this chapter don't ask why they moved so fast and why gogy got hard so easily lmao im tired and its the week of me doing NWEAS and I haven't slept in days and I haven't eaten in days I probably should but I can't im not tired and I have an eating disorder- another day of ranting to people who won't see this wtf k then uhhh not gonna keep y'all waiting for the next chapter also im working on a song and if u want you can write possible lyrics in the comments or on my feed don't have to I might use your lyrics since it isn't even close to being done I have one line also It has to be about one of the mcyts the beginning is about the while dream smp then it moves to someone else I would prefer if it wasnt Schlatt, Tommy, Wilbur, Techno, or Tubbo since they already have a lot of songs abt them also ima make a discord sever and put it in my feed so people can join ages 11-18 no weirdness if ur older than me im 12 btw I'll put rules in the server and work on making tonight as well as finishing like 5 missing assignments and clean my room and its 1230 am and I think my parent is awake anyway have a nice night/day ily ur worth it and don't give up!! I'll update soon but atm I have no idea what to write about- other than the fact that next chapter is smut- I have never written smut b4 so bare with me and I know its going fast but im finishing this story and making an angsty one about samxponk or karlnapity idk yet anyway Byeee hope y'all get help if needed whether its mental or just regular therapy if needed and call this number If ur feeling suicidal 

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline number: 1-800-273-8255 love you stay safe!