my rose

bad days

LOOK AFTER YOU- THE FRAY
harry was having a bad day. he felt low, empty and completely and utterly alone. he had a bad nightmare of his times with sam. constantly forced to hurt, getting told he wasn't good enough and left there to fend for himself. harry kept pacing around the room wanting to escape this heavy and overwhelming feeling. he ran. he ran as fast as he could. heading straight to the beach. and he looked at the waves in the wind and the pouring rain and he cried. he cried until he couldn't anymore. he had scars. overtime they healed. but the ones physically still remain. they followed him everywhere, everytime he thinks, sleeps and eats. the list goes on. he will never escape this never ending loop of sadness and reminders of how alone he really is. and how much he has. nothing. he has nothing and no one. he has louis but he would leave. everyone does. they can't deal with his bad days. holding onto that feeling he cried even more. continued for what felt like hours. he couldn't even feel any heartbreak or sadness anymore. it was just numb. and numb turned into anger. he punched rocks. so hard that he bled red blood. he stopped to think. he inhaled in and breathed out. slowly walking lifelessly to his flat, not caring who may see him on his way. once there, he cleaned up his bleeding hand and as soon as his head hits the pillow he slept. he was so exhausted. he wish something could help him. anyone.
7 hours later, he was woken by his phone ringing aggressively. it was louis.
"hey harry" louis greeted sounding as cheerful as ever.
"uh hey louis, what's up?" harry said lazily which was his deep morning voice.
"shit sorry for waking you, i wondered if you wanted to watch a movie today? the new spider-man is out" louis asked in anticipation.
"um i've been having kind of an off day but i guess i could do with the distraction so sure" harry barely got out.
"oh, you don't have to if u don't want to, i hope you're okay" louis confirmed, in concern
"oh no trust me i need it, plus i like hanging out with you" harry said, blushing but luckily louis couldn't see as it was a phone call.
"oh do you? well most say i am quite entertaining" louis said, harry could feel his cheesy grin and crinkled eyes through the screen.
"okay let's not get overly confident now" harry chuckled
"you're one to talk" louis replied with a giggle. harry thought that was adorable. "so how about i meet you there in maybe an hour?"
"perfect i'll go shower and get dressed, see you then lou" the nickname just slipped out of his mouth. he didn't even realise. it fit perfectly though. it sounded perfect too.
"bye haz" louis replied back, coming up with an equally as cute nickname. shit harry was in deep.
harry didn't feel completely better however it's as if louis knew harry needed this, it did make him smile and cheer him up a bit. he was excited to spend more time with him, he really did feel like there was possibly something there.