Where to from here?

Chapter 3

                Justin's Prov
my day felt so unusual without her it's like I've known her for a long time, she has those unforgettable brown hazel eyes, the most sensational smile I've ever laid eyes on, she's a very knowledgeable young adult it's not a usual feeling that I'm getting, this never happened to me before, I just love how her nose twitches when she's angry I just hope I'm not falling in love with her.
"leave me alone, help!" "help me please Justin" who's calling me? why do I know that voice? "Justin" "Justin help me please" as she cries down while these two strong men carry her to the truck, I try to run but I can't move my feet I try all my best but I'm stuck and they're taking her she keeps yelling and shouting for help but I just stand there and watch her go "Justin help" "Justi..." I wake up all wet, I sit up straight on my bed and think about my life and my dream this is unusual.
the next morning I call Kalo for a meet up I needed to talk to her ASAP!
I don't want to lie she looked very beautiful in her casual clothes we arrived at the restaurant took our orders. "what's going on are you okay?" she looks like she barely had sleep, she looked tired and worried and yet also scared "I'm okay don't worry yourself over nothing" as she starts asking me what's going on, my mind drowned me in thoughts and I could barely hear her all I could hear was her screaming and yelling, all I could thing of was the dream"Justin help!" "help me please, Justin help Justi..."  I snap back to reality as I realize that she's calling my name "are you okay Justin?" I could see in her eyes that she was worried "I'm sorry I just had a bad dream and I can't get it off my mind" she stares at me as if she's searching for something in my eyes, we make that intense eye contact that's making me really nervous. "Okay well let's eat I guess, why did you want us to meet? you sounded a little bit off on the phone is everything okay?" I drink some water and think for a suitable answer for her question "oh yeah I wanted to see you and get to know you better that's all" I said. "Look if you're not okay we can do a rain check it's okay I'll be free the whole week" she said as she drank the wine with a straw "thank you for caring but I'm okay relax, since you're free this week I'd like to show you a special place, very close to my heart" she let's out a huge smile "okay I guess I'll hear from you then."

my life is not perfect nor any good from a life that a gangster lives, I'm a hypocrite, a liar, a manipulator, I am so many things that I even hate myself, my ex girlfriend Amber could tell you all about me, oh yeah that's right she's gone, not dead but gone I don't know where she is or how she's doing, all I know is that wherever she is, she's blaming me for everything, she's blaming me for not being a responsible person, an honest person, a loving and caring partner, the only thing she wanted from me was to be a man, grow some balls and stand up for what's right but I never did that, I got fired on year 2019 I had everything and now it's gone all I'm trying to do is to fix my life and get a good job, I have a BBA degree yes I went to school and finished school my life was perfect. Kalo is a great person everything about her reminds me of Amber and I hate it!