mafia men(book 1)[boyxboy}

chapter 19

Pov Noah

As he got in the car all I could do was look out the window I could not bring myself to look at him and for some reason I could feel my eyes water what the hell why am I crying should not even care god.

It took use 20 minutes to get to the house as soon as we pulled in to he drive way I ran up to the room. I shut the door and ran to the bed and screamed into the pillow. Why did I think I would be different god I am so stupid. You probably are very confused of what I am talking so let me give you an reminder.

After Jake left Noah at the bench

I sat on the bench and looked out to the beautiful garden. What is wrong with I have tried to kill lavender more times than I can count and he has still kept me alive. 

I got up and decide to go back to his hospital room the door was open and Jake was In there I stood at the open door I really should not have been listening. But what ever but then he said something that for some reason hurt a lot more then it should.

"I just need to fuck him and get him out of my system and hen I will leave him like the rest". My eyes started to water at that I ran past the door an started to the car.

Back to the present.

So that I way I am now face down in my bed sobbing I don't now what these feelings are I cant be that attached some one I have just meet and I am so stupid god to think he might actually  like me I am just like the other. As I kept having a pity party for myself there was a knock on my door this caused me to jump of the bed an dry my eyes shit I cant show them my emotions.

"Hey Noah you in there". Said sister I let out a sigh that it was not kai but what would it be he probably does not even care

"Yeh I am". I said sounding a bit awkward.

"I just wanted to check on you can I come in.

"Yeh give me as sec". I ran into the bathroom to make sure my eyes weren't all red a poufy from the crying. I ran back to the bed.

"You can come in now".  I started to messy with the end of my shirt I do that when I am nervous shit why am I nervous. She slowly opened the door and walked in the room and sat on the bed,

"Tell me what is wrong". She said as she looked straight in to my eyes how did she now,

"What do you mean nothing is wrong". I started to fiddle with the bottom of my shirt. This caused he to look down at my hands on my shirt.

"I may of not seen you in 10 years but I remember you fiddling with the bottom of your shirt when you are nervous. Shit. How does she still remember. 

"So get you ass over her and tell me". She pated the space beside her on the bed I sat down I for some reason I really missed her over the years I had a feeling she was still alive but I kept telling myself I was crazy.

I slowly started to tell her what happened today and by the end she was fuming I never realised how nice it was to have someone care for you so much.

"God I am going to fucking murder him". She said pretty pissed she tried to get of the bed but I grabbed her hand and dragged her back down,

"No you cant do anything he is still your boss and I don't want him to hurt you". I Said just below a whisper. She looked down at me and wrapped her arms around my waist I think is what they called hugs I wrapped my hand around her waist and hugged her back god this felt so right I am so glad she is my twin.

"Well if we cant hurt him we will make him jealous". I looked at her as she had a scary glint in her eyes I still Remember it from when we were kids.

"How are we supposed to do that". She looked down at me with a big smirk on her face god she is scary.

"You will find out soon". Shit what have I got myself in to.

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I am sorry for the spelling mistakes English is not my first language. 

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