Finding Them...

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TW: Rape Flashbacks and Scars

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Guelia s POV:

"NO!" I immediately shot up from my bed, hands shaking and drenched in sweat. I just woke up from a nightmare. I haven't had one of those in so long wth? Why now?

Deciding to ignore it I sigh and check the time, 4:30. damn it. Only 3hours of sleep, I've been waking up from nightmares all night. Ughh right before school too. I got up and decided to take a shower and get ready early.

Grabbing my clothes, walking into the restroom and taking off my pajamas I stared at my reflection. Each and every one of my scars had a story, a painful one, ones I didn't want to relive. I found myself turning slightly to see the one on my back. 'Whore' 'slut' those words were carved into my back. It was one of the worst nights of my life...

*Flashback*

I had just got home from school, but I was late because I had to stay after to finish a late project. Damn it. I should've just walked out.

Right when I walked in I heard his voice.

"YOU WHORE!! WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN?!? HUH?!? HAVE YOU BEEN WHORING AROUND LIKE USUAL?!? ANSWER ME!" My step- father yelled. (Not Ivan)

My siblings heard him yelling so they peeked their heads around the corner to see what was going on. When they saw me their eyes widened. They knew what was going to happen, they wanted to stop it but they couldn't. They know they couldn't. I wouldn't let them, I'm the oldest I should deal with it. Mom wasn't here thankfully, she was still at work.

"I-I'm sorry I g-got caught up a-at school." I spoke quietly trying not to make him more mad.

"THATS NOT AN EXCUSE! YOU SHOULDVE BEEN HOME 2 MINUTES AGO!" He screamed. This was the angriest I've seen him, I was terrified.

" I-I'm sorry-" I tried to apologize but I was cut off by him.

"No. IM TIRED OF YOU! YOU WANT THIS DONT YOU?! YOU WHORE! GET IN THE BASEMENT NOW!" He said pointing to the stairs leading to the basement. I didnt argue and went to the basement. My siblings went back upstairs so they wouldn't get in trouble.

My breathing was erratic and I tried to calm it down. I knew what was going to happen and I would just have to deal with it. Just like every other time.

Soon he came in and immediately his eyes darkened and he started unbuckling his pants. I couldn't stop shaking and crying. Even though this happened so many times before I was still scared, it hurts so bad. I just wanted it to stop. But it was never ending.

Her stomped up to me and pulled off my clothes, "NO! NO! PLEASE! DONT! I PROMISE ILL BE BETTER I PROMISE!" I tried reasoning but he didn't listen.

"SHUT UP YOU WHORE! YOU WANT THIS! I KNOW YOU DO! NOW DEAL WITH IT!" He screamed and he immediately started his usual routine. It hurt so bad.

"NO! NO!"

*Flashback over*

Shaking those thoughts out of my head I put my hands on the counter looking down trying to calm my breathing. But I saw it. The worst scar i have.

His initials. He carved them into me that same night right after that, my siblings heard my screams even though I tried my hardest to contain them I couldn't. Once he was done he threw me in my room and my siblings all ran up to me. They gasped when they saw the carvings, and all the blood. They immediately helped me clean up and we went to bed that night. Acting like nothing happened, as usual.