WANT TO DIE NOW

full story (in short)

" I'm a doll...... a living doll who cannot move nor speak, just think and listen to my cute sister Jiza.

I'm a doll still Jiza calls me as her sister.
I was so satisfied and happy when her mother gifted me to her when she was 11.
She had a lovely smile..which was so real.
She used to talk to me everyday...she used to say me that she never had a bestfriend in her school and everyone used to bully her so she used be alone all the time and cry but hiding her tears from her mum but when she used to hold me.......she was a bit relaxed.

Everyday she loved me evenmore and now she was 18 .... but the best thing was that she took me to her hostel where she was studying.

It was a puzzled day for me when she even didn't saw me and left her room when it was so dark.I was so scared that night........... thinking that night I still use to have goosebumps.
She came the next day in morning and I guess she was drunk because she wasn't walking properly and she even didn't attended her classes.
In the evening, I heard..that she was saying to someone on call ,"I will do anything for u baby. I love u James".
They had a long conversation and I was a bit jealous but I was knowing that no one has ever noticed her so Jiza might be feeling good talking to that man but it was so much when I saw😅 such long conversations everyday and I guess she was forgetting me..let it be she was happy.

I still can't believe and understand why did she took nude pics of herself??
I thought it might be a fun as she was still enjoying it but after few minutes I heard her shouting on someone actually I heard a name( James).Forget that!!!!...  but from that day she was so disturbed as I could see her crying .....how could I tell u...it felt so bad but it was even worse when she stopped going out of her room and it felt as she is suffering a depression but I was wrong.

I still cry and it feels I'm dead now thinking as how she did suicide in front of me. She even don't told me what problem wass she facing but it's a grief as I cannot save her.

Whatever it was but I think.... sometimes u should let go some relations as it's not hard to be away from toxic people but it's very very hard to get rid of toxic relationship.
Just wanna say....I WANT TO DIE NOW"