Find Our Way- Ron Weasley

Happy Fucking New Years

New years eve

I've been waiting for this day since the first day of school. I'm going to make sure everything goes right this time at the ball, I don't want Ron ruining it like last time. I just don't want to end up crying.

Even though I'm not going with the person I want to go with, I can still have a good time. Ron isn't going to stop me this time. This is going to be my day.

Boy was I so wrong and right at the same time.

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"The dress on you is wow." Hermione was lost for words. She saw that I wasn't smiling when I looked in the mirror.

"What's wrong?" she asked.

"I shouldn't feel like this." I said.

"Like what?"

"Lost. confused. I don't know,"I scoffed. "I have the hottest guy at Hogwarts as my date and I'm still not satisfied. I feel so selfish because I know I'm going to picture myself dancing with Ron everytime, i dance with cedric. I feel so bad for Cedric, he likes me so much but he knows I can never be with him because I like Ron. What am I doing wrong? Do I need to be prettier?" i was on the verge of tears, I was really hurting inside but I pretended to be okay.

"y/n it's okay really. You're pretty and- wait where are you going?"

"To go see Ron. Maybe i can get him out of my head if i talk to him right now." I walked out of my dorm and went to Ron's. I knocked on the door but nobody answered. "Ronald?" I opened the door slowly to see Ron with his hand on his face.

"Ron. what's wrong. Where is everybody else?"

"They went to help out with the ball. I don't know what i'm doing y/n. I just can't" he looked up at me and his eyes went wide. "Y-you look amazing. Wow."

"Thanks ronald." I giggled. "What can't you do?"

"Lavender has been talking about slow dancing for a week. A week! And I don't know how to tell her I can't slow dance."

"I can teach you if you want." i said without thinking. I regretted it. I was supposed to be getting closure right now.
"You will?" Ron's eyes lit up. I couldn't take it back now, he looks so happy.

"Yea come here." he stood up and walked over to me. I took his hand and waist. I could feel the butterflies in my stomach.

"Okay now step like this." you showed him then he repeated it. Keep his eyes on his feet.

"Make sure to look her in her eyes.'' He looked up at me and stared into my eyes. My face was centimeters apart from his. I look up at him and stop my movement. I cleared my throat as I stepped back.

"I- um i have to go." I walked out of the room.

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"You should go first." I pecked again over the wall to see Cedric standing there waiting for me.

"y/n im taking the other way George already seen me in my dress. I'm only here because of you." She reminded me .

"Yea right. I don't think i want to go, tell him i'm sick." I was about to turn around but hermione grabbed my shoulders.

"He's waiting. go!." she pushed me now everybody could see me. Cedirc eyes were me, Ron's eyes were on me, the whole school's eyes were on me.

"I can't do this, they are all staring." I whispered to hermione.

"Yes you can and they are waiting so go." I put on a big smile and started walking down the stairs slowly. Once I got to the end Cedric put his arm out. I clutched onto it and walked to the dance floor.

"You okay."

"Nope." I gritted my teeth, I looked over and saw Ron and lavender dancing. You checked the clock and it was 3 hour until midnight. Not a lot can happen in that time period right?

"We don't have to dance if you don't want to." he said.

"No, no it's okay let's do it.

40 minutes until midnight.

Everybody was tired, so was i. I looked over at the stairs and saw a lot of girls crying. I feel so bad for them. This was supposed to be there tonight. I scanned the group of girls again and saw lavender sitting on the stairs crying.

As much as i don't like lavender. She is crying. I have to do something. I walked over to the stairs and sat next to her.

"Do you want me to get ron." I offered.

"No no please dont. We broke up, well I think we did." she sniffled.

"I'm sorry." I rubbed her back.

"Tonight was the night I was going to tell him that I loved him. I've been waiting exactly for this night to tell him but he said he's in love with somebody else." she told me "im sorry"she said in a whisper

"Sorry for what?" i asked

"I wanted to be just like you. You know? You have everything, the money, the friends, the looks. I've been so mean to you because I couldn't expect the fact that he loved you and not me. I knew from the beginning he liked you, I tried so hard to get him to like me. I just wanted everything you had, I wanted to be the girl who somebody loved but i got nothing and you got everything i ever wanted." she cried. I couldn't put into words how I felt.

Never knew she felt this way until now and i feel so bad. I'm so selfish.

"Ron told you he loved me." I couldn't help but ask.

"No but I know. I think everybody else knows except for you too." she smiled but the tears were still running down her face. "Go find him," she whispered. I hesitated for a minute. Lavender was crying about Ron not loving her and now i'm going to go confess my love for him. I didn't seem right. "It's okay. I will be okay" she reassured me.

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I looked everywhere around the school but I couldn't find him anywhere. There was one last spot you didn't look at. Your place.

Once I got there I saw him sitting on the bench. I sat next to him.

"Hey" i said

"hey"

I had to tell him how I felt. It's now or never.

"You know, um there was this time that i thought maybe you liked me and i liked you back. I was so scared so I didn't tell you when you met lavender.it was um.....It was really hard seeing you with her everyday."

"You can't just do this." he glared at me.

"Do what?"

"Tell me this. It's not fair y/n, I liked you, i really liked you. I would turn myself inside out liking you-

"You did like me?" i asked hopefully

"Yes! Of course I did, why would i? And now youre saying you felt the same. I made myself get over you y/n and the sad fact is that i'm not over you"

"5..4..3..2" you heard everybody shouting. Ron put his hand on my face and pulled me in for a kiss. His lips were better than I imagined. I pulled back and rested my forehead on his.

"Happy fucking new years."

(TOOK THEM LONG ENOUGH TO KISS.)