Cuffs and Cabinates

(chapter 6)

I stare at the door and a part of me said 'do not step out' and The other one repeated 'he needs You He did not do anything wrong'. Ofcourse I listened to the side that repeated he needs me. I opened the door looking at him sitting at my door with his hands supporting his head.
He looked at me and got up with the help of the wall.
I walk to my flat and unlock the door.
"I'm sorry for anything i did." He says.
"No No. It wasn't you." I walk to him cupping his face in my palms. "It is me. I was insecure. I always am."
"Tell me. What about us made you insecure." He held my hand. "I'll make it disappear."
"That I am poor, i can't give my family a good life and people," I pause reframing my sentence. "You will think I am a gold digger." Tears filled my eyes. "You can't make it disappear. I don't want you too."
"No this is all bull shit. You are all i ever wanted. I wanted smiles, sunshine and warmth in my stone cold life." He says. He holds my neck. "Be my yellow. Please." He smiles as i wipe his tears.
"I will. But I guess it's better if i leave your company and join another one." I smile.
"If that is what you want, really want I can recommend you." He smiles.
"Really?" A tear rolls down my eyes.
"Yes." He nods.
As I place my head on his chest and he slides down sitting on the floor.
He laughs and hold me tight.
"Why are you laughing?" I smile I look at his smile.
"What were you doing in that apartment?" He pushes my hair behind.
"Hiding." I say as i realise I could have hid in my house.
"You could have hid in yours." He laughs and I get emmbaressed.
"Yes. Just safety." I lie as he kisses me on my head and keeps kissing for a few seconds as i smile. He pulls back and I push my lips on his chin.
"Crosair, you never really tell me about yourself." He sits upright.
"I dont have a lot to say." I smile as he keeps looking at me suspiciously. "Alright, My mom and dad had shifted here from India when they newly got married. Though they wanted to name me Parvati they knew it would create questions and trouble during my high school years and so they named me Crosair which they seprated from Corsair which meant pirate. My mom loved Johnny depp, or in short black sparrow." I smile remembring her.
"Where are they?" He looks at me as i sit upright.
"Dad's dead, he was killed." I look down sitting besides him leaning on the wall.
"It's okay if its too early." He says.
"I wish i could but i would never be able to tell you everything."
"Do you want to knkw about me?" He smiles. "Before I tell you what do you know about me?"
"You are the first buisness owner in your family and got a firm company at 18."
"Yes." He smiles.
"You are Crosair's boyfriend." I smile. "Tell me a out you."
"My mom worked 2 shifts a day at a Labour company." He looks at the stairs. "She never spent time with me. It wasn't her fault. She wanted me to have a good life. So I made a better life for her. There were times i saw her suffer from pain and sleepless nights."
"So everyone has a painful story?" I look at him.
"Yes. Only some come out though." He pauses. "This world has made it normal to experience pain inside."
"I will love you no matter what." I whispers in his ears.
"I don't belive in forever but I'll love you till the end of me."
He kissed me, gental and special. He is expressive and best of all he is mine.
I push him back. "Isn't this all like a dream?"
"If it is, it's so beautiful. I'd sell my soul for this to last." He smiles and rests his head on my shoulder. My eyes widen. He trusts me I look at his face resting on my shoulder my heart starts pounding and I feel excited.
"I do believe in forever." I rest my head on his.
"So this is forever?" He smiles.
"I hope." I close my eyes imagining us getting married.
We spread our legs and stay in the position for some time.

I woke up on my bed with him on my arm. I hugged him gently pulling my arm slowly not to wake him up as i walked to the kitchen pulling out a glass and drinking some water. Re-thinking the whole moment.
I walk to him and place a glass and some water besides the bed.
I sit next to him slowly rotating my hand on his head.
"Am i good looking?" He opens his eyes and I fall on the ground. "Oh I didn't mean too." He gives me a hand giggling. I tap his hand away angrily.
"You are a - a" I lack works. "Bug."
He follows me to the living room.
"OH!" He grabs my hand and pulls me to him. "I didn't mean to."
"I'll never know." I pull away and he keeps smiling and giggling. "You really are a bug." I say as he holds my waist.
"Ok. So be my bug girl." He says and picks me as i keep shaking.
"No I hate bugs. It's Cringey!" I say as he puts me on the sofa. Leaning over me. "I'm honestly sorry." His eyes move lower from my eyes to lips.
"Okay. You can get off her." James voice echoes in the room.
"James!" I smile. "Wait what time is it?"
"It's 8." He says. "I'm early."
"Get off me." I push Andrew away.
"Was everything okay?" I ask.
"Yes." He smiles as i go in for a hug. "I told my parents I'm gay. They didn't react bad they were happy too." He smiles.
"I'm so happy for you." I smile.
"Did you send money to your-" I cover his mouth. Eyeing him. "Wrong person." He says as soon as i take my hand off his mouth.
"We are supposed to be somewhere." He tries to remind me.
"Where?" Andrew walks to us.
"We were going shopping." James lies.
"Oh can i tag along." Andrew smiles looking at us as he widens his eyes.
"I don't think so. It's our night." James makes an excuse.

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Thank you for reading
Tan