Why Don't We BXB oneshots (REQUESTS OPEN)

IF ALL IT IS IS 8 LETTERS, WHY IS IT SO HARD TO SAY -ZORBYN

WARNING: CONTAINS SELF HARM, IF YOU ARE SENSITIVE TO THAT JUST SKIP THIS ONE.
STAY SAFE IF YOU ARE GOING THROUGH IT <3

CORBYN'S POV

he was so cute.

Zachary Dean Herron, the most adorable boy in the world.

i was staring at him.

his smile was adorable, and his eyes, and nose and ears and hair.. EVERYTHING about him was cute.

i had a huge crush on him as you can tell.

he problably didnt even like me back.

no, he 100% did not like me back.

he never will.

im scared to tell him.

im scared i will get rejected.

im scared to say the 8 letters.. i love you.

he is my best friend, he only thinks of me as a friend and nothing else.

i think of him differently.

"Corbyn, are you alright, why are you looking at me?"

i heard Zach talking.

i realized i was still looking at him.

i blushed, looked down at my feet, got up and ran away.

i don't know why i ran out like that.

the entire night, i could not sleep so i woke Zach up.

me: Zach, Zach wake up.

him: what do you waaaaaaantttttttt

me: i need to talk to you

him: ok whats up bud

me: i- uh actually nevermind.

him: oh ok you can tell me whenever you want just so you know.

me: ok goodnight Zach.

him: goodnight.

he went to sleep but i still couldn't.

the next morning, he woke up and saw that i was just sitting in bed. wide awake.

him: hey bud, why are you awake so early?

me: oh goodmorning Zach, uh i couldn't sleep last night.

him: well, why?

me: uh- nevermind.

him: come on, please tell me.

he had puppy dog eyes and his bottom lip was curled out.

he looked so cute.

i couldn't just not tell him.

me: imgayandiloveyou

him: what did you say, i didn't hear you?

i had the courage to speak for one second before but he didnt hear me.

me: uh- well its a secret.

i walked at a fast pace out of the room.

he followed me.

him: what kind of secret is it? 

me: a crush, that is all im telling you.

him: aww, why can't you tell me?

me: because its a secret.

him: im your best friend, why can't you tell me?

me: BECAUSE IT IS A SECRET NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!

i walked away and he stood there, shocked at what i just said, i had always told him my secrets, but i couldn't tell him this one.

i got to our room and shut the door behind me.

i ran to the bathroom and slammed the door and locked it.

i opened a little secret compartment and grabbed a box.

i opened the box and took out a blade.

i put the sharp blade against my skin and cut deep.

1 cut, 2 cut, 3 cut, 4, 5, 6.

i felt dizzy and the whole world went black.

ZACH'S POV

i saw Corbyn looking at me from across the table and decided to speak..

"Corbyn, why are you looking at me?"

he started blushing, looked at the ground, got up and walked away.

truth be told, i kinda like him, in more than a friendly way.

he doesn't know and i don't plan on telling him anytime soon.

that night, i woke up to him speaking..

him: Zach, Zach wake up.

me: what do you waaaaaaantttttttt

him: i need to talk to you

me: ok whats up bud

him: i- uh actually nevermind.

me: oh ok you can tell me whenever you want just so you know.

him: ok goodnight Zach.

me: goodnight.

i went to sleep and woke up the next morning.

i saw that he was awake so i asked him..

me: hey bud, why are you awake so early?

him: oh goodmorning Zach, uh i couldn't sleep last night.

me: well, why?

him: uh- nevermind.

me: come on, please tell me.

i gave him puppy dog eyes and curled my bottom lip out.

i wanted to look adorable so that he would tell me.

he said something but my thoughts stopped me from hearing it.

hnfgbysghmjdfvdsgbchdbncnxdhgsnb thats all i heard.

then i asked him what he said because i didn't hear him and he said that it was a secret and walked fast pace out of the room.

i was so confused.

why did  he tell me before but then said it was a secret after?

i decided to follow him.

and i asked a few questions as we walked.

me: what kind of secret is it?

him: a crush, that is all im telling you.

me: aww, why can't you tell me?

him: because its a secret.

me: im your best friend, why can't you tell me?

him: BECAUSE IT IS A SECRET NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!

he walked away up to our room and i just stood there, shocked.

i stayed there for a while and then i heard a thump come from upstairs...

A/N hio guys,
there is gunna be a part 2 for this btw.
this one was hard to write.
anyways the song at the top, it means that you want to say those "8 letters" which are 'i love you' to someone but you can't.

if any of y'all are going through something where you feel the urge to cut yourself, just know that it is not a good thing to do and the people in your life that you have told are sad that you are going through it. i just want you all to know that your skin is not paper.

luv y'all <3