teddy bear 🧸 // minsung

twenty seven 🧸

The dams in Jisung's eyes that kept his tears held back suddenly broke and streams flowed down his cheeks. Jisung covered his face with his hands and his body shook with how hard he cried. Minho began to panic and he immediately went to engulf Jisung in his arms. He continued to cry as Minho ran his right hand through the soft black locks of his hair.

"Jisungie why are you crying?" he asked, Minho's voice laced with concern.

Jisung hiccuped. "Y-You brought me a teddy bear." Jisung whispered as he cried.

"Well....yeah. I know how much you love the one I gave you years ago."

"It just makes me fall for you more." Jisung muttered as he gripped the material of Minho's shirt.

Minho smiled as he lightly kissed Jisung's hair. "I thought you hated me now."

Jisung pulled away and wiped his face as he sniffles. "I could never." He took the black and white bear out of Minho's hands and wrapped his arms around the small animal. Jisung placed his chin on top of the animal's head and waddled over to the couch. "Are you going to come in or just stand there?"

"Oh!" Minho shut the front door and speed walked over to the couch. He sat on the other end of the couch, hands folded together and legs squeezed shut while Jisung sat happily in a cross legged position and his arms still wrapped around the bear.

"So..." Minho started to speak. He rubbed the back of his neck and avoided Jisung's gaze at all costs. He stammered quite a bit trying to form a sentence.

"It's okay Minho," Jisung reassured. "Take your time...if Innie asked me to hear you out, then it must be something extremely hard to talk about."

Minho nodded and muttered a small 'thank you' before falling into silence for a few minutes. Minho then sighed and nodded his head. "Okay, I think I know how to start.

"So... from a young age, I always thought having crushes on either girls or boys were normal. I've had a crush on multiple boys throughout my childhood, and I never saw the problem or concern. I just kind of went with the flow I guess?" Minho shrugged his shoulders before continuing. Jisung was a little shocked at the fact Minho had admitted he liked boys, but he waited for Minho to continue. He was in all honesty a little scared to see where this headed.

"Well since you know now I liked boys, yes I had a crush on you back in middle school..." Minho's voice faltered at the end of his sentence and he fiddled with his fingers. Jisung's cheeks were tainted a dark crimson color and he swore his heart stopped beating. "And I told my cousin Sungwoo about you. Like I said I thought it was normal to like anyone. And he never judged me and I could've gushed about you all day." Minho chuckled.

"Anyways, I asked my mom to take me to buy you the teddy bear for Valentine's Day. While we were picking out the bear, she asked me 'Who's the girl you're giving it to?' And I froze. My gut was screaming at me to lie but it was hard for me. I simply told her that it was a secret and to not worry about it. Of course she only thought I was embarrassed to talk about my crush, but she really didn't have a clue.

"The day I gave you the bear, my mom asked Sungwoo who I gave it to. He told her 'Oh his name is Jisung.' And she got really angry..." Jisung could feel the guilt in his heart settle down. He shut his eyes to prevent any tears from forming.

"Once I got home, both her and my dad were glaring at me. During dinner, I asked what was wrong. She said 'I didn't teach you to like boys.' I swear Jisung, I could feel my heart stop at the cold, bitter tone in her voice. And I asked her 'Is that not normal?' She slapped me right then and there. My mom screamed 'Of course it's not normal! No child of mine will like boys. You should know better than that!" Minho's eyes were glued to no specific area, but he could still see his mother standing above him with her hand raised in the air. Minho blinked a few times before shaking his head and continuing.

"The last thing she said was 'You will never talk to this Jisung boy again. If I catch you near him, you will face the consequences." Minho's voice ran cold and it sent shivers down Jisung's spine. All those years Minho never glanced in his direction was because of his own mother. The one who was supposed to love him.

"So I ignored you. I convinced myself and shoved it into my mind that loving other boys was wrong. And since I had seen you being picked on for openly being gay, it sent fear down my throat. I wished I could've saved you from them but I couldn't, because my feet wouldn't let me. That small voice in my head that was identical to my mother's said to leave you alone. And I did.

"So when Felix suggested it was you, I panicked and said all that stuff I didn't mean. My mother is constantly in my head yelling that liking boys was abnormal and was wrong. And she was in that moment. I'm really sorry about all the things I said...I really didn't mean any of it." Minho looked over to Jisung, who had been silently crying while Minho spoke.

Minho crawled over to Jisung on the couch and cupped his cheeks, wiping away the tears with his thumbs. "Hey....why are you crying?"

Jisung placed his hands over Minho's. "I'm so sorry I didn't listen to you, and I'm even more sorry for the situation you were put in. You didn't deserve that hyung." his voice wavered.

Minho smiled. "It's okay, I'm okay."

Jisung sniffled. "Are you still with your parents?"

Minho shook his head. "No. She kicked me out and I'm now living with my grandma and grandpa. And they love me no matter who I love."

"And...who do you love?"

Minho slowly leaned towards Jisung's face until their lips hovered around each other's. "Can I show you?" Minho whispered. Jisung only nodded and Minho closed the gap between them.

Their lips locked softly and instant fireworks exploded. It felt as if they've waited an eternity for this moment and that they could finally express their emotions dedicated to the other. Jisung's hands made their way to interlock in Minho's longer black hair and he grabbed a fistful of it. Minho rubbed small circles on Jisung's chubby cheeks as they continued plant their long and slow kiss on each other's lips.

Jisung broke away first to breathe but leaned his forehead on Minho's. Their eyes were still closed and they were only enjoying the moment before it ended. "I love you Minho hyung." Jisung whispered.

"I love you too Jisungie. You don't know how long I've waited to say it." Minho planted a small kiss on Jisung's nose before continuing. "Will you please be my boyfriend? And we can put all of this behind us?"

Jisung bit his lip and nodded. "And you don't know how long I've waited to hear you ask."

Minho laughed and pulled away. "So who gave you my number?"

"Seungmin."

"I knew that fucker was keeping something from me." Minho facepalmed.

"Yeah but look at where it got you!" Jisung slipped his hand into Minho's. "It got you to me."

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