Bundles of Stars

quatre| hailing flashbacks.

there I was.. just blankly staring at myself in my mirror. all of my hair cut off.. dyed platinum blonde. I was at a mid mid life crisis.. it was seriously fucking my life up. I didn't have anything else to do just to relieve my anger and sadness so I cut off my hair off to release the shackles of all the trauma in my life.

"Diamond why would you ever cut off all of your pretty hair?"

Was all my mom could even think of when I showed her, I explained to her it was to cut off trauma and her response literally almost made me sick.

"You could've went to therapy for that.."

My eyes quickly glowed a bright golden color before I snapped back into reality.

"I can't fucking wait until I move out..I'm entirely sick of this shit."

I left that day to go see Alyssa, she was the only person who could put up with me and my slew of emotions at the moment.

"It's gonna be okay Dia.. you know I understand you the most out of everybody. I'll never leave you.. and that's a promise. I'll never give up on you."Alyssa held me close, engulfing me in her warmth and love.

I swear I never fell in love with somebody as quick as I did with Alyssa.. she showed me so so much love and she actually cared for me unlike everyone else. It's just I was scared to ask her to be my girlfriend.

But that day..something in my heart told me to ask her before it was too late.

"Alyssa, will you be my girlfriend?"

"Of course I will Dia, you're literally my entire heart."

She looked me directly in my eyes and smiled, then I her eyes changed to a light pink color, sort of how my eyes went golden before.

I smiled back and glanced at her quickly up and down before grabbing her face to place a sensual kiss on her lips.

I had the best year ever with her, but you know how I said I had that feeling in my heart before it was too late? Yea..that same year Alyssa went missing. By all the leads they have she's still alive, so the only thing they think that happened is she changed her identity and went under a new alias.

Truly I hope that's all of what happened, because if I ever found out I lost Alyssa I would lose myself all over again. I wouldn't know what to do with myself. I'd be likely to lose myself all over again.. and it wasn't pretty the first time. 6 hospital visits in two months, I was put on suicide watch the entire time.

I hate when I can't find myself it tears me to pieces and I never feel normal at that point. That's another thing I got picked on for.. I was always in and out of school for my suicide attempts and a so called friend of mines told my business. So at school I was made fun of for any and everything that delt with my depression.

I hate myself for telling her.. cause she thought it was actually funny. But at the same time in general she's just a bad friend, and what could I actually do about that.

But enough of that.. those were my terrible flashbacks. Also.. no they don't get better.. see ya later.

-Dia🦋

I hope you all like this, it was more or so a chapter of Diamond just speaking out for the time being. It'll be a lot more chapters like this to give a deeper look into her life. Adios.

-Kaay/Akiko❤️‍🩹