SCINTILLA; s. itoshi

year 4, letter 83

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HER

Dear Itoshi Sae,

As I write this, I can feel the life being drained from my body. Nevertheless, I'm going to write to you. You probably got this letter from Rin along with a couple of my belongings. Feel free to take whatever you want, unless my parents don't want to give it to you.

You're probably wondering, what killed me? Well, I have an unknown illness that weakens my immune system, hence why I always got sick as a child. I talked to Rin about it as we got closer while you were gone, platonically of course. I know you probably made the assumption that Rin and I like each other. I'll explain more later.

Anyway, the bag. It contains some or your old jerseys I stole from your dresser while you were gone. Rin and I used to watch your games and I would wear your jersey. But since I was bedridden for a while, we had to watch it in my bed, sometimes even Rin's. Don't think anything nasty of it, it was just us watching your football games.

I also included the necklace that you sent me for my 13th birthday. Since it's not really "girly" or whatever, maybe you could wear it? I mean, after all, it is just a gold chain with a charm that has my initials on it. If not then that's okay, just keep it somewhere safe for me.

And lastly, the hoodie that I loved so much. I know you can't fit it, nor can I, but keep the damn thing would ya?

Okay. You and Rin got into a fight, right? Something along the lines of you switching to midfielder despite your dream with Rin. I don't want to make you feel bad about yourself, but that was an ass move. However, I'll support you to the fullest. But please be nice to Rin, he really did look up to you. Or just take your time until you're ready to talk to him. Be the best midfielder (or striker) you possibly can, I'll be in the stands cheering for you!

Second, there was nothing between Rin and I. Just wanted to point that out. I have a huge crush on you, did you know that? Probably not because you didn't visit me. If you did after I wrote this letter then forget I said anything. Because like I said, I'm writing this in advance. When time is cut short you have to do what you need to do.

I still haven't gotten any better at writing letters, so please bear with me.

I want to remind you that you don't need to feel guilty for anything with me. That is, if you are. I don't care about you not writing back anymore, because it means nothing in the end. You'll always have a special place in my heart, and as cheesy as it sounds it's true.

The hospital sucks. It smells like death is at my doorstep and it's freaking me out. It's cold and lonely here. The food is shit. I miss you, Rin, my parents, and your parents. You know? I want to see you and Rin play football together again. Rin got scouted to go to this project called Blue Lock, he was so excited, did he tell you? If not then I guess I'm the one to tell you.

Well Sae, this is the end of my letter.

I love you so much. Thank you for everything, from taking care of me to just existing.

Good luck with your football career!!

I'll be cheering you on from above.

Love,
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