DR. LUCAS
Wake up, Please. This has to End. I hear a faint voice.
I can see my lashes fluttering in my view as I half opened my eyes, I hear myself whispering "I love you" just watching Lee drove away and I couldn't move my feet. I must be still dreaming.
I love you, it's confusing how this word release under my breath with the pain in my chest, like maybe I was feeling a different kind of love for him this whole time. The love that I haven't felt with anyone.
I was forced to move and get up when the sharp beeping sounds of my phone alarm goes off. It's 8 am and I need to go to work, When will this cycle end.
Things might be different in the office now since Lee has moved, Palaisipan pa din sa akin when he decided to just move away like that? I knew there is definitely something wrong but I'm not used to not knowing what's going on especially with him. For just a best friend, I know people would think I may be a little obsessive, but I have known this guy all my life and I'm a part of him as he is with mine.
My phone vibrates and I see Frank calling, of course, our daily thing.
FRANK : Hey Love, are you awake? Just called to say goodmorning and sorry again for cutting you last night, you know how people at work, did you have a good sleep?
What? I froze and felt like I've already been here, in this same situation. yesterday.
ME : We didn't talk last night, did we?
FRANK : Yes we did, I'm sorry for not calling you back, I was up till midnight finishing work. Why? What's wrong?
I'm feeling nauseous and confused at the same time. Maybe this is what you'll get from losing sleep, you lost track of time, of events and everything else going around you. I should better have this head checked before I check myself in a mental institution voluntarily. My head is spinning.
ME : Nothing, I'm just not feeling well. Can I call you back later?
FRANK : are you sure? I can drop by at your place, or I can pick you up at work and maybe we can grab dinner, talk about things. I haven't seen you in a week.
This guy, although I have been thinking he hasn't been treating me well lately the way that I feel he should, makes up for everything, everytime.
Dinner? the idea of dinner and Lee and Frank meeting made me more muddled.
ME : Let me check my schedule for today and I'll let you know by noon, I have to shower and get ready for work, I love you.
And then I ended the call.
Driving to work, the thoughts of this morning kept me occupied and confused. What the hell just happened? Maybe I should call Lee and check how things are going with him, I mean with the going away. His--taking a little break drama.
As I walk by the office, I almost lost my balance and my jaw drop on the floor seeing him munching on that big ass chocolate doughnut and holding his coffee in the other. Akala ko nakakita ako ng multo, Why is he even here? I thought he moved.
"Hey, Good morning" Lee greeted me with his beautiful smile and happy eyes.
"Hey." I immediately grab him by his arms to a vacant room.
"I thought you're going away?" my eyes full of question.
"Going away what do you mean?"
