The Alpha's Girl

Aurora - Luca And My Most Painful Memory P.t:1

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Exist for love by AURORA.
Word Count: 18845
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*Aurora POV*

The second I saw Luca coming into alpha Harper's office, I was petrified. Why is he back here? isn't he supposed to be in Germany doing God knows what? I haven't seen him since I was 18 and he was 25, and even then, he looked the same. His blonde hair was messy and pushed back from the amount fo times he ran his hands through it, his hazel eyes were still as piercing as ever, his nose was straight and pointed, his lips were still full and plump as they always did. I wondered if they would feel the same against mine as they did a year ago. I shouldn't even be thinking about this since he was the the one who cheated on me with a woman who only wanted his body, not all of him.
I was so hurt by it, I just had to leave and cover my scent so he couldn't find me. The witch who helped me do it told me that fi he finds me again, it'll be just like the first time we met, just that the memories stay with and in our heads and hearts.
All I ever did was try to make him happy and at ease with me, even though our relationship was a secret. I was scared my brother would find out about us and then rage war at me and alpha Harper's pack. I didn't want that.
Looking at my situation now, I think admitting to Dimitri that I was mated with Luca Harper, instead of him finding out I've been lying to him about not finding a mate for the last 2 years. I really feel guilty right now. The look Dimitri gave me was so full of betrayal, anger and pain. It really pained me to see my twin brother like this, because of me.
Luca was closing in on me, so I was stuck between him and the wall, God It's been so long since I was pressed against him like this, My wolf (Accalia) said in my head, shut up, idiot, can't you see where we're at! I snapped back at her, angrily.

Luca kept on moving forward towards me and I kept moving backwards away from him. Luca looked hurt, but he quickly masked it with his anger. He was so angry, if this was cartoon, ther'd be smoke coming out of his ears. I heard someone clear their throat, but I didn't care.

I continued to back away from Luca, that's until I hit the wall. I gripped it to tightly and tilted my head away from Luca and closed my eyes tightly. I felt everyone's eyes on us and I really felt uncomfortable. I gulped and cleared my throat "Get...Away...From...Me...Harper. I meant it when I said before. I do not want to see you in my life EVER again. Yet here you are, just waltzing in like you own me." I spat in his face, my voice still came out croaky though.

"Oh, sweetheart, but I do own you. I owned you since I found out we were mates, but you refused me. YOU said we couldn't be mates because your brother hated me with a burning passion. YOU killed members of my pack to show me how much you hate me, but I still couldn't hate you. I couldn't get over you no matter WHAT I did or WHO I slept with. I loved and still love you too much to hate you and to let you go. I was heart-broken, BECAUSE of you. Do you realise how I felt when you erased my scent from you. I am still happy that you kept my mark" Luca said touching my neck. I closed my eyes and tried backing away from him one more time, but Luca caught me with a tight grip around my waist.

I noticed everyone leaving the room and that's when I really became nervous. I was scared of what Luca would do if we were left alone, just us, together. His head came down to my height, I was 5'2 while Luca was 6'8 (162cm and 210cm), and he looked into my eyes. His gaze softened and mine did too.
We just stood there.
Staring into each other's eyes until I spoke up, "Why?" It was barely above a whisper. Luca stared at me before answering, "Why, What, Love?"
I was stunned; first, he calls me love after all he's done, second, HE was asking me why I said why. In this moment, he is the one who should explain himself for cheating on me, "Why did you cheat on me, Luca? Why did you cheat on me, when all I gave you was love and affection, WHY?" I was full out crying at this point, I was shouting at him and it felt great to confront Luca like this, I haven't cried in front of someone for YEARS, yet here I am, in front of the man who cheated on me, showing him my weak and vulnerable side. "Was I not enough for you so you can just leave me for a whore, who wanted nothing but to have sex with you and get herself a higher position? And now you ask me why!" I wasn't backed up against the wall anymore, it was Luca who was trying to back away from me this time. He knew how hard it was to contain me when I'm pissed off. His face was a mixture of confusion, anger, pain, sadness, love (if you can call it that) and fear. I will enjoy this as much as I can.
"I hate the way I still feel about you even when you cheated on me and left me for that bitch! Because I still fucking love you, but you definetly don't" my anger facade was starting to tear down, only to be replaced by pain and sadness of the memory of when I caught him with my cousin (at least she used to be, I killed her after that and made it look like an accident).

***Flashback***
I was done with one of my missions Dimitri told me to do in Germany and I was going back to Luca, my mate. He's honestly amazing and I love him so much, he loves me too. I was a little early from when we agreed on meeting together in his hotel penthouse suite.
My mind was filled with thoughts of Luca, the way he'd hold me after we've made love all night, the way he'd brush my hair behind my ear so he can see my face better, or the way he'd wake me up with sweet morning kisses and even the sweet, little late night cuddles we share. The sweet nothings he'd whisper in my ears whenever I had a nightmare or when we get on it on in the bedroom.
Luca is just too cute with me.
I arrived at the hotel Luca is staying in and got into the elevator to the top floor with my keycard and entered the penthouse. The beauty of the view never seemed to amaze me, but today however, I didn't feel anything when looking at it, only sadness. There were clothes on the couch, I chuckled at this, Luca always leaves his clothes everywhere he can when he's tired. I picked his clothes up, I stopped when something fell out, a piece of paper. It was wrinkled and there was writing on it with a black pen. I read the writing and it said "12th avenue on 57th street, second building, 8th floor, the door on the left" (A/N:I just made this up so please don't judge) I thought Luca would be there and I can maybe surprise him there.
I arrived at the location of where the paper led me, I was quite puzzled because it was an apartment complex. There was a bad feeling inside me and I could feel that Accalia was in pain, it made me in pain too, but I fought her pain and pushed the bad feeling to the back of my mind. Maybe Luca is just visiting a friend he found was here, but he never told me about a friend who was here in Germany, well he doesn't have to tell me everything, does he?

I climbed out of my car and went up the elevator to the 8th floor and turned to the door on the left side. I knocked, but I found it was already opened, so I stepped in.  There were cothes scattered everywhere, but what caught my eye was Luca's white dress shirt with lipstick patches on it. I gasped and dropped it, looking at the other clothes, I found that there was also a thrown bra, thongs, a very revealing black dress, Luca's pants and his suit jacket. He can't be- No! Luca loves me, he'd NEVER cheat on me...But does he really love me or was it just an illusion like a mirage?

I heard sounds coming from one of the rooms and I followed them. The moans and groans were very familiar to me, but I wouldn't believe Luca was cheating until I see proof with my own eyes. I found the room and the moans and groans were really unmistakably Luca's, I pushed the door open and gasped at what I saw: Louise (my cousin) was bouncing up and down on Luca, they were moaning and groaning. Louise was screaming from absolute ecstasy and pleasure. Luca was groaning and kissing all over her. They were really sweaty, so they've been going at it for quit a while. "Really, Luca, really? Why? Why did you do this why!? And Louise, Oh God. I hate you! Both of you! I never thoguth you'd sink this low! Never!" I screamed at him. Louise quickly grabbed the bedsheet and tried to cover herself with it, she did that and cowered in the corner of the room with fear written all over her face. "Love, it's not what you think it is, please listen to me" he tried to grab my hand but I jerked away from him, Luca frowned and tried again, but I pushed him back. Having alpha blood in me made me very strong, he didn't resist and got pushed back on the bed. It broke and he fell to the floor. "I'm disgusted, by both of you" with that, I left and this became my most painful memory.
Because of him.
Luca Harper.
I never smiled anymore.
I never laughed anymore.
I was never happy anymore.
I covered my scent from him but kept his bite mark.
I had to cover the mark everyday.
I had to look at it and be reminded of the man who stole my heart, and shattered it to pieces.
Because of him, I was and still am heartbroken.
***End of flashback***