Lost hopes

Too much pain...

The initial shock had subsided. The full force of my bitter reality hit me. An overwhelm of emotions: pain, anger, betrayal and sadness... Everything hit me at once and I lost all my sanity...

I had run out of your office building and walked all the way to our house. So many tears dropped from my eyes that at one point, I felt like my eyes have been crying forever. But the pain did not lessen, however much I cried.

I entered our home, wait, have not I lost the right to call it that. I went to our bedroom and my gaze landed on the big picture of both of us, hanging over our bed. How happy do we look..... We are holding each other as if we are each other's breath, we are smiling as if we are each other's only source of happiness. How whipped do we look, how much in love were we, right????

Then why was that love not enough to hold you to me. Why was my love not strong enough to keep only me locked in your heart. Why was my love not deep enough to stop you from loving someone else.

"Whyyyyyyyyyyyyy..... "

I screamed hard and kept on crying out loud unless my throat became sore. My knees buckled besides our bed and I kept on staring at the picture frame blankly.

Probably two hours later, after being drowned in so many 'why's and getting the answer to none, I reached out to pack my things.

As soon as my packing was done, the room suddenly felt very cold. As if it had never been occupied by two loving souls.. As if a couple had not built countless memories and woven innumerable dreams here....

But before leaving, I left you a last token of our love. A last message of mine. Probably the last few words I will ever say to you...