Here's the truth: Lisa never forgets.
There are things she locks away, sure, but they're still there somewhere if she ever wandered there to look for them.
She locks away every song that made her think of Chaeyoung -'the way you kiss me will work each time', 'I have never loved a darker blue than the darkness I have known in you', 'there's gotta be a place, love's the only way'- and she locks away everything that made her feel broken.
But they're still there.
And maybe she had lost some pieces of herself. Several pieces. And maybe she didn't notice until they had come back -until she had come back.
And here's the truth, Lisa had chosen to hold onto Chaeyoung again.
She had decided that it was a good gamble, her feelings possibly coming back -even if it felt like they never had gone in the first place- against Chaeyoung's renewed friendship. She had decided that she could handle it. She had not predicted Chaeyoung's feelings as a variable, though.
That may have been a mistake on her part.
Chaeyoung's ignoring her now, she thinks. Not that Lisa had tried to text her, so she doesn't exactly know. And she doesn't even know where to start if she were to try and do that -what could she even say, how could she even fix it.
She doesn't even know if she wants to.
She doesn't know what she's supposed to want.
So she ends up running, like always.
She runs to practice and then she runs to class, burying herself in work. When that doesn't work, she spends the days following Solar around, and when she's busy, following Jisoo around, which meant too many trips to the library and too many times witnessing her awkward flirting with Jennie.
It sure beats thinking about the Chaeyoung situation, though, so she has no room for complaints.
She kind of wants to complain a bit, though, after the fifth consecutive hour in the library looking at books she doesn't even know where to start memorizing.
She drops her head on the book with a groan. She's not going to survive this for much longer.
Jisoo kicks her in the shin instantly.
Lisa's eyes fly open, "Hey!"
She ignores the general shushing coming from the other library-goers. She almost kicks Jisoo back when she notices the exaggerate nods to her right.
"What?" she hisses, ignoring the shushes coming from all around them.
She has half a mind to give them all her middle finger when she hears a whisper to her right, "Hi."
Lisa's eyes widen, her head slowly turning towards the sound of Chaeyoung's voice.
"Hi." she says back, blinking twice and almost expecting for Chaeyoung to just disappear.
She doesn't.
It is, honest to God, amazing how it only took Chaeyoung two weeks to lick her wounds. It took Lisa three years, and it still wasn't enough.
"Can we talk?"
Lisa follows her out wordlessly, leaving her books and her bag behind and ignoring Jisoo's faces and thumbs up.
"I'm sorry about the other night." Chaeyoung starts, sitting down on one of the steps in front of the library, blatantly ignoring the fact they couldn't sit there -not that Lisa will be the one to tell her so.
She sits next to her, "Are you?"
Chaeyoung doesn't answer her, the truth more than evident in her silence.
