Zombie Direction

Chapter 20

I tap my fingers along the long wooden table watching. Brim...brim...brim...brim. My fingers tap feverishly needing to move. Thoughts swirling through my mind. A family...nope not gonna happen. Kids...nope can't afford it. Love? I have no clue. One minute Zayn is asking to help me. At my feet like a dog waiting for a treat. But the next not even noticing me. Like he is blind to me. And I'm sick of it.

"Jannel, would you mind taking Sydnee and," please not Zayn. "Zayn with you?" Thanks louis...thank you. I think sarcastically glare at louis.

"Where are we going?" I ask after hitting my fist on the table making it shake. I stand up slowly looking of at zayn.

"I think we should look around. I was thinking you guys could explore the front office. Me, Niall and Tyson could go to the front doors and make sure no one can get in." Tyson and Niall nod understandably. Harry and

Angelina smile.

I roll my eyes. Trust me, I am happy for them! But it gets annoying I guess... Seeing them all happy while I'm over here fed up with love. Never finding love, someone that can stand me. Someone that will take me no matter what. But what am I kidding myself? I'm just some surviver that wants love but doesn't deserve it.

But I want that. I want a relationship where I'm happy. One that I don't have to cry myself silently to sleep every night. I can lean on when u can't deal with this anymore. I want to be loved. Someone to love me. I want to love someone. And that someone is Zayn Jawaad Malik.

"You ok?" Harry whispers to me.

I nod. "Yeah why?" I ask grabbing my gun. I put it in my side holster.

"You were crying..." He whisper and I reach up to feel my cheek. I was indeed crying. My finger wet with y tears of love.

"Oh...it was just my eye watering..." I lie. I go to the door and lean on the wall next to it.

"Zayn." Louis says handing out the guns and blades. Zayn grabs the hand gun and a smaller blade.

"Niall." He hands him a medium blade with a rifle.

"Tyson." He hands him a shorter hand knife.

"Jannel." He says handing we a gun but she grips her hand on the butt of her blade.

"No thanks I have this bad boy." She says unsheathing it.

I nod. "Angelina and Harry if your going to make babies while we are gone please stay quite." I say smirking.

I laugh at their blushing and Harry nods. "Ok...we will try..." He says and leans against the wall.

"Ready?" Louis asks.

Everyone nods. "Let's go."