𝙂𝙚𝙤𝙧𝙜𝙚'𝙨 𝙗𝙡𝙤𝙜
I've started a blog.
Your reading it right now.
Why have I started a blog might you ask? You know when your sick and you can feel yourself needing to vomit but it's just not happening? Yea well that's how I constantly feel at the moment except not actual vomit because that would be weird but word vomit. I just can't seem to get my words out to anybody without practically feeling the judgement.
So that's why this blog is going to be anonymous. All the names mentioned here will be made up and if everything works out everyone will be oblivious to who I actually am. That way it makes it so much easier to actually talk and be totally me. My best-friend Honk Boy (that's obviously not his real name but then this blog wouldn't be anonymous would it??) would say the fact I'm having to hide my identity is an "epic tragedy" but what does he know? Mans isn't a queer person with anxiety issues. (He's actually a gay 16yr old with parental problems but that's another story.)
Sometimes I wonder why my anxiety even happens and then I remember all the standards that society sets and feel stupid for even asking that question to myself in the first place. Let's face it , there's a lot to get anxious about.
SOME OF THE TOP REASONS FOR TEENAGERS TO BE ANXIOUS
1. Your supposed to look perfect all the time
2. Whilst your hormones are going mad
3. Leading to the spottiest time of your life
4. Conceding with the fact you have the freedom to buy all the Chocolate Orange you want (making number 1 impossible)
5. Suddenly school is on your tail about every missing assignment ever
6. Unrealistic homework deadlines
7. Suddenly everybody seems to care about the random unwanted zit that appeared last night
8. Adults constantly mocking all the little things you do
9. GCSEs
10. The horrific stupid expectations everyone seems to have for teenagers
That's probably not even half of them! The adults be like "when I was your age" or "We didn't have phones or the internet. We had to go to libraries and socialize!" Seems a bit ridiculous if you ask me because those are the same mums who post all their meals on Instagram :/
My mum's latest favourite thing to do is constantly ask "where her little boy has gone" or why I've stopped doing all the things I did as a kid. If you were like me I was an absolute sucker for books when I was younger. My Christmas list every year was always just: BoOk, BoOk, BoOk, bOOks. But now I can't even remember when I last read something that wasn't a fanfic about some fake characters that I feel closer to than my real friends.
I was watching this thing and apparently the reason we don't read as much anymore is because we've found another way to escape and feel safe. Take your phone or laptop for example. You can talk to people, watch funny videos that make you smile, pretty much anything. It's your way of making yourself happy. Maybe it's not your phone, maybe it's watching movies or playing sport something like that. It's your way of escaping and we've all found our own ways of doing that when we were a kid and now we've moved onto something else. Maybe you weren't a book worm when you were a kid, maybe it was something else but everyone definitely had something.
So this blog is my thing. My new way of escaping and putting myself as well as my feelings out there. I'm going to say what I want to say and I hope that whoever is reading this will do so with me! All of us together can talk without having to pretend to be something we aren't, without having to worry about the opinions of others that constantly tower over even our tiniest decisions.
As well as that you can expect a lot of photos -not of me of course but of double chocolate ice cream (my favourite flavour) and just things from everywhere I go.
I'm gonna sign off here but I hope whoever is reading (if anyone has) that this wasn't too much of a rant! Let me know what you think in the comments of this blog! As I said it's my first time ever doing anything like this so I'm not sure what really comes after this so just expect more to come of whatever nonsense comes from my head to my fingers typing away on my keyboard.
Signing off,
Gogy :)
A/n
Holy shart this chapter took way longer to write than it should have LMAO. I kind of put myself into George's blog because even though I'm yet to have to worry about my GCSEs I relate to a lot of the things his character says in this chapter which actually made it a lot easier to write.
No dream at the moment hehe that's coming later. As this chapter comes out I'm gonna be writing the second one which isn't a blog it's George's actual life 1 year on from this but expect more chapters which are just George's blog. Lemme know what you think in the comments and please vote on the chapter if you enjoyed it because it helps me know if people actually like this Lol. I'll take any constructive criticism!!! :D
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FanfictionOnline, George is known as Gogy, a blogger who talks about his daily life, music and the anxiety that has began to plague the things he enjoys most. But when everything seems to just be getting worse, a surprise trip to Florida for his parents busin...
