Unsaid Jatp

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Warning. Attempted suicide, swearing, panic attack w no detail, ptsd, abuse, flashback scene, intense dRaMa.

Julies pov

I say goodbye to Reggie and walk out into the living room.

"Alex!" I cry. He is on the couch having a panic attack. I wrap my arms around him. I whisper in his ear. "Its okay. Its okay. Its okay." He's gonna be okay. Its not okay on my end but at least Alex is good. He is my best friend. Alex's breathing regulates after about 20 minutes.

"I'm ok. You can leave now if you want."

"I'm gonna go lay down okay?" He nods. I walk up to my room. I open the door and walk in. As soon as I enter my room, a wave of loneliness and sadness washes over me. A tear slips down my face. I'm confused. Flynn says I should just date Nick. I like two guys in my band. I like Luke. But I love Reggie more. Ugh, why are decisions so hard?

I get an idea. I'm tired of being confused. I want to see mom again. I reach into my dresser drawer and pull out my shaving razor. I pull out the blade. I shiver as the cold metal touches my warm sensitive wrist. I slide the blade against my skin. My vision starts to fade immediately. "Fuck that hurts." I curse. I don't even check to see if I'm bleeding. I pass out. It worked.

Lukes pov.

I'm bored so I decide to visit Julie. I knock on her door. "Jules? It's Luke." I say. Weird, she never ignores me. Even if she's angry. She's not angry though. Maybe. I don't know girls are confusing. I slowly creak open the door. "Fuck." In the corner of her room is Julie, with blood seeping from her body. I take out my phone and dial 911.

"Hello? Help! My friend is bleeding out. She tried to kill herself I think."

I scoop Julie into my arms and carry her into the bathroom. I lay her lifeless body on the counter. I check her pulse. Okay, she's still alive. I wrap bandages around her wrists to stop the bleeding. I hear loud sirens from outside.

"Hello?" I hear an unfamiliar voice. "I'm over here." I scream. I know her mom died but I didn't think that I would lose her. Two nurses rush into the bathroom and pick up Julie. "Be careful with her!" I scream as they hit her head against a wall.

My life starts crumbling around me. How could I be so stupid to leave her alone? I follow the nurses mindlessly into the ambulance. I can't lose her. She is too precious. Flynn is going to fucking kill me.

My mind runs a mile a minute as we pull up to the hospital. The nurses wheel her into a hospital bed, where they bandage her wrists better and let her wake up. My head is spinning. I lose my grip on reality until I hear a soft voice.

"Luke? What happene- Oh, I know what happened."

"I thought I lost you." I say, tears stinging in my eyes. "I almost did."

"Where's Reggie?" She asks, attempting to change the subject. Shit, I forgot to tell the guys.

"Uh, somewhere? I mean, home? Um, shit." I lie. I'm a really bad liar.

"You forgot to tell him didn't you?"

I nod. I whip out the phone that Julie got us. It's so hard to use. I click on Alex's name. It rings. He picks up.

On the phone.

(Luke on the left, Alex on the right.)

"Hey buddy."

"What's wrong? You never call me buddy."

"Something happened to Julie."

"Shit okay. I'll tell Reggie."

Phone call over

The boys poof in immediately after I hang up. "Julie! What did Luke do this time?"

"It's not Luke's fault." She chuckles. She weakly lifts up her wrists. Alex gasps. "Oh." He says softly.

"Not you. Please say you didn't do this." Reggie shivers sadly, his PTSD kicking in.

"You okay Reg?" Julie asks worried. Reggie collapses down on the floor, zoned into his own little world. "Why is this happening?" She asks, looking at the ground.

"Reggies parents would hit each other in front of him. He used to cut too. He even tried to-" Luke answers shakily.

"Unlive himself." Alex interjects.

"Perfectly worded." I chuckle. It makes sense that he would be triggered by that. I can't go and hug him because I'm in a hospital bed. "Luke. Go hug him."

Luke nods and runs behind him. Reggie flinches as Luke slowly rubs circles on his back. "Its okay buddy. I love you. Don't worry."

"I-i can't lose Julie. Almost losing her the first time was bad, but again? Too much hurt." He chokes on his own sobs. Tears stream down his face.

Alex walks up to Julie and examines her wrists. They are scarred and beat up. Julie pulls her sleeve down. "Babe, I want to see it." Alex insists while trying to pull her sleeve back up. I tighten my grip on Reggie. "Its okay Reggie."

"Thank you Luke."