When we first locked our eyes✔ | Monday x Fem Reader

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TW: rape

Y/n's POV

"It's okay to cry sometimes." I patted her back while she was sobbing on my body. Her breathing was so deep and I tired so hard to calm her down.

"My boyfriend just broke up with me. He was the only one I had." The unnie said in tears. I wiped her tears away and grabbed her face to look into my eyes.

"He's not the only one in your life. Your ex couldn't even see your worth in your personality, unnie. Crying is not a sign that you're weak, you were just staying strong for too long." I patted her head. She just tightly hugged me again and I returned it. We hugged each other for a long time until she broke the hug.

"Call me Sana." She suddenly smiled at me. So I returned the smile. I know in the past, her beauty was different and her pretty smile made me feel special... It was warm and this feeling gave me butterflies.

I fell in love with her at the first sight.

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"I like you, Sana. I fell in love with you." I shouted to her when she was about to go home.

It was our fifth 'date' and I've always thought, it was the best day of my life. Nayeon and Momo helped me a lot with dating her. They gave me her schedule and told me everything she liked. Her favorite food, parfume, flowers... Everything, she loved about.

"I fell in love with you too, Y/n." She gave me the most beautiful smile that made me blush in the darkest shade of red. I jumped around in joy because of her response. I also could hear her laugh from a far and she went home.

It seems so weird to think about how young I was when I was basically dating an adult this time but I didn't care about it, she loved me the way I loved her.

"The time when I broke up with you, the excuse was a lie." Sana told me in an upset voice.

"I know, Nayeon-unnie has already told me that." I calmly responded. I looked at her and she was about to cry again. I immediately hugged her while she hugged me back and starts sobbing.

"You know about my ex boyfriend..." She continued her speech but you could clearly hear her broken heart through her voice... She's been never this broken before since the break up with her ex boyfriend.

"What happened? It's okay if this is too much for you." I whispered to her and patted her back.

"B-but you deserved the truth." she suddenly broke down and I immediately caught her.

Many people seemed to recognize Sana and started to worry about her. I decided to carry her and run to my house.

I let her lay on my couch and turned the TV on to have a better atmosphere.

"Hey. I'll bring you some water." I told her ans ran to the kitchen, coming back immediately to give her the water glass.

"T-thank you...", She sobbed and drank the water, "Your house is still the same, huh..." Sana put the glass on the tables and started to analyze the living room.

"My mom is in Japan right now. You can tell me." I caressed her cheek and she started to continue her explaination.

"I broke up with you because I thought I was pregnant this time..." She looked away in embarrassment.

"How? We are both girls. This is not even possible, Sana." I whispered to her and she started crying again.

"ARE YOU STUPID? OF COURSE THIS IS NOT POSSIBLE." She suddenly screamed at me madly in tears.

"Was it your ex boyfriend?" this image popped in my mind and sadly... her mood changed.

"... exactly. My ex boyfriend raped me." I put her head on my shoulder and felt the tears on my shirt. She was crying and I am shocked by this situation.

"He raped me and said if I'm not going to break up with you, he'd make sure to ruin my career and won't pay for the child." She explained in a hardly understanding voice.

Why am I so dumb...? I wasn't there for her and now I've moved on from her... but her broken heart... I badly want to fix it but I don't think, I'll be the one who does that.

"When I knew that I wasn't pregnant, he told me that it's too late. He saw you and a girl in the mall switching drinks and drankit like a couple does-"

"Wait? What?" I interrupted her. "That was Jihan, my best friend and not Monday-unnie."

"Oh, but it's still too late. You've already moved on. When he told me about the mall situation, I gave up on you and cried about it all of the time. But one day... he suddenly said to me that I will marry him. It doesn't matter if I want it or not. I still loved you and not him but he couldn't resist me. So he came up with a deal: if you haven't moved on, I'm not gonna marry him and if not, the marriage will come. This time, I was sure that you haven't moved on but I was so wrong..." She told me in disappointment.

I couldn't even look into her face. I feel so bad right now. I'm such a horrible person...

"Y/n." I looked back at her.

"You've already moved on, right?" She smiled with her tears in her eyes.

"I don't want to break your heart and I don't want you to marry a person you don't love. There must be a solution to cancel the marriage." I said and she grabbed my chin.

"It's hopeless Y/n and I already know the truth. I won't disturb you anymore with your crush. But can you do me a favour for the the last time?" She asked me and I looked at her deep brown eyes with a tint of sadness in it.

"Yes, Sana."

"Kiss me for the last time."

I grabbed her jaw and kissed her like we've always done it before. I missed her strawberry favored lips but this kiss felt different then the others.

It felt like I've already moved on.