Is this love?

Chapter II-"Sophomore"

Days,Weeks,Months have passed since I've transfered school,I dealt with the problem of socializing with other students and became a well known boyscout I'm not that kinda famous but atleast people do know that I exist.

Juliana,That is the name of the girl I noticed across the hallway since the first day,I don't talk to her but according Jake and Sam she is quite famous inside and outside the campus even so I never talked to her even once during my sophomore year but still I always notice her.

It was December the 19th when we had a Christmas party and I approached a girl wearing a beautiful Sky blue and white dress,"Hello!,The name is Sean what's yours?"I said nervously it took her a second to reply"Hi Sean!,It's Regine why do you asked?" I was that nervous I can't stand straight,I feel lighter,Adrenaline is kicking and it was weird approaching a girl for the first time,I asked her"Is it ok if I get your number?"I know that was not a smooth line or a nice question but Regine gave it to me and she left me a smile,Now I ask my pals "Dude!I felt strange!what in the world was that feeling?" Sam replied with excitement"Maybe it's love?"and Jake replied"No Sam!It's love at first sight!" Now I ask myself this question for the first time "Is it love?"

So I started to text Regine,It was all to well and I ask her out to go to the movie and on the 29th of December I waited for her,waited and waited but she was out of sight I felt nonetheless angry for making me wait for nothing.

"Mom nothing happened she made me wait for nothing"I told mom,"Son you shouldn't be disappointed"but when I ask mom, "why?" I was so surprised because she said,"Son you are too young to understand such complex relationships the feeling you get when you see her is different from the feeling that you see a friend or us,maybe you felt anxious when you met that girl but it's just natural to be a little nervous."and out of the blue I ask mom with this words,"what do you mean by those feelings?" mom replied with one word"Love".

Maybe mom gave me a hint of what love is,maybe it's a feeling when you meet her,thinking of this so called love made me think and daydream of what it is I have no idea what it is but then I have to find out what is this so called love.

February a few months have past and it was cold outside while on my way to school I saw a couple holding hands,I stop and stared at them and not knowing this is a clue to the answer of my own question"Is it love?",I arrived safely to school and started a chat with my pals and told them I saw a couple holding hands Jake replied,"You're just plain jealous because you don't have someone to hold hands with." and Sam added "It's natural because it's February and Valentines day is near."and I was left with one thought in my mind since that chat,"I need to find someone!"

Being a young sophomore has it's problems even though I knew a lot of people I dont know how to date or find a girl I was discouraged knowing that I'm 14 back then and I was a 2nd Year highschool student,I don't know how long can I bear to be sad knowing that Valentines is near and still I don't have a partner to go out with.