Live My Life-Part 8
Selena's POV:
It was the last period of the day and I had history. I walked in to see Justin sitting next Demi laughing. He saw me looking and I quickly turned my head the other way. He fell silent instantly which I didn't understand.
I missed Demi so much but I had pushed her away. She had tried to help but it got too much for her so she left. I sat in the front of the class as mrs bennetts began teaching.
I could feel eyes trained on my back but I refused to turn around and meet them because I knew they were Justin's.
Why wouldn't he leave me alone? I just wanted to suffer.
Justin's POV:
Demi and I were laughing and joking when I saw Selena walk in. She looked hurt at the sight of demi and I.
When I looked at her she looked the other way and I fell completely silent.
This girl was slowly torturing me.
I want to help he but I had no idea how."you okay Justin?" Demi asked.I nodded my head. "so how did talking to Selena go?" she asked quietly as class begun.I shrugged not wanting to talk about it.
I was kind of mad at demi in a way. I know I had no right to be but just the thought of how oblivious she was to how hurt and broken Selena was made me feel sick. They are best friends. Well were.
The class dragged on and the whole time I sat there starting at selena's back. I didn't pay any attention to mrs bennetts I just sat there and looked at her.
It was probably kind of creepy but I didn't care.
She needed help and she needed
someone to lean on and I wasn't giving up.
Not that easily anyway.When class finish I went up to Selena and pulled her aside by her wrist. At first she flinched and then I realized what I'd done so I moved my hand to the crook of her elbow.
"sorry about that" I said sincerely."what do you want now Justin?" she said angrily."look Selena, you need help-" I started as I got cut off. "you have no idea what I need" she said between clenched teeth.
I bit back the words that automatically came to mind because I knew it'd make this whole thing worse. Think carefully about what you say Justin. "Selena I know what your going through believe it or not. My mum went through the same thing and you do need help. Wether it's from me or not please get some help because you deserve so much better.
Please just talk to someone. You probably won't want to but here's my number if you ever need anything. It doesn't matter what time or where just ring.""I don't need your help Justin. I'm perfectly fine" she bit back. I knew it was only a cover up.I grabbed her hand and pulled her sleeve back "Selena this is not fine" I said quietly. She quickly pulled her hand away so she could pull her sleeve down.
"why do you even care about what I'm going through?
It's not like you had to watch your brother get killed or listen to your parents fight every night, to have your sister think that she is the reason that your brother died or-or"she stopped as she tried to catch her breath.
It was a good thing we were the only people in the class because she started to cry."or what?" I said wiping her tears away with my thumb.She took a deep breath "or loosing everything that once meant something to you. This is the only way I can feel real.
The only way I can bare to live with the pain" as she finished I pulled her into a hug at first she objected but then she just cried into my chest. I slid down the wall to sit on the ground and pulled her into my lap rubbing her back.
I stayed quiet I didn't know what to say. "shhh it's okay selena" I said trying to soothe her.
Her sobs slowly quietened and she looked up at me through her long lashes before standing up."I'm really sorry about that" she said looking down.
I stood up and lifted her chin up to look me in the eyes."it's fine.
Glad I could be of service" she laughed at that. She had the most beautiful smile ever and I would do anything to make her smile again.
Selena's POV:
What had just happened? I just broke down in tears and Justin just held me. It felt weird at first, foreign because no one had ever been there to do it. After a few minutes I just sat in his lap crying him rubbing circles on my back.I realized what had happened and looked up at him before I climbed out of his lap and stood up. "I'm really sorry about that" I said as I looked down ashamed."it's fine. Glad I could be of service" he smiled. I had to laugh at that and a smile spread across my face.
I couldn't remember the last time I smiled but it felt good.I pulled out my phone to see what the time was "shit! It's 3.30" I yelled."and?" he asked"I have to pick up Scarlett, I'm so late!" I grabbed my bag and ran out quickly running to my car. I was so late.
I pulled up to scarlett's school to see her standing outside crying. I quickly got out of the car and ran over to her. "I'm so sorry Scarlett I got held up."She looked up at me with her tear stained face. "selly?"She asked as a smile spread across her face.
"I'm so sorry scar, you want to go get some ice cream?" she nodded and wiped her tears away getting in the car."so how was school?" I asked on our way to get some ice cream.Scarlett looked out the window ignoring my question.
"Scar what happened?" I said quietly.She turned her face back to me and she was crying again. I almost fell to pieces everytime I saw her cry wishing I could take the pain of whatever she was feeling away.
She sniffled as her tears fell "come on princess, you can tell me anything" I said holding her hand."do you love me seena" that took me off guard."of course I do princess!! Why would you say such a thing?"
"the boys at school told me that I was ugly and that no one would ever love me" she said as she kept crying.I had a huge lump in my throat and I couldn't talk. as I pulled up the driveway I turned the car off and pulled Scarlett into my lap "now Scarlett rose Gomez you listen to me.
I love you more than anything else in the world okay? Nothing will ever change that. I love you so much and so do mummy and daddy. You hear me?" she nodded her head. "don't listen to those boys okay? You are absolutely gorgeous just the way you are. Don't you ever change for anyone. Ever."
"okay selly. I love you too. You are the best big sister ever. I wish I was like you."
I wiped her tears away and kissed the top of her head. I wish you don't end up like me I thought to myself.
"you are perfect just the way you are scarlett." I said hugging her tight.
