confusing "bromance"

Part 5- never have I ever

Harrys pov: 

I looked up at the ceiling, The past days have been full of concerts, and interviews, we haven't really got any time for yourself. I love being on tour, but it gets exhausting, but still. I couldn't imagine doing anything else. 

We have two days off. I really need to get my mind of, off things. so I walked out to Louis who sat on a chair in the kitchen. 

"Hey Lou, why don't we invite the boys over and get drunk tonight?" he looked at with a surprisedly look. I normally think its stupid to get high, and drunk. But I really think I need it. 

"You, Harry styles, wanna be drunk?" he answered. I rolled my eyes at him. 

"Yes Louis, now answer me. Yes or no?" I said trying to sound serious. 

"Yes harry, shall we call them over to 6pm?" I nodded at his question. Only 1 hour till I can forget my feelings for a second. 

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The time was now 5:59. They could be here any minute. And I was right, a loud knock came from the door. I almost ran over to the door, I was so exited to get drunk. I opened the door with a huge smile on my face. Three speaking boys stood on the other side of the door. They stopped talking and looked at me. All with the same face Louis gave me when I asked him. 

"What?" I asked with a sharp voice. they all looked down on there shoes. Niall mumbled something, but I couldn't hear what. 

"I- uhmm. I mean we bought beers, if you still wanted to get drunk. its okay If not we can just do something else." he said, the last part quiet. 

"What- no just come in" I said. they all began to walked in, and niall sat the beers on the kitchen table. 

"Louis mate hey!" Liam said and pulled him into a bro hug.  I could feel the jealousy rising in my body. Why was I jealous? Louis can have friends.  I gave Liam a glance, and he seem to notice when he let out a little giggle. 

"Okay so, maybe we can play a game while drinking?" Niall said "I mean we could play never have I ever or something, and instead of taking a finger down we drink. " 

I looked around seeing the other boys nodding. I did the same. 

"Okay uhm. Never have I ever driven drunk..?" I said with a smirk knowing niall had. 

"Not cool dude, it was one time!" niall said while taking a sip of his beer. I rolled my eyes at his funny comment, before he decided to take the next one. 

"ohhh i have a good one, Never have I ever, kissed someone of the same sex" he looked over to me, then to louis. I took a deep breath before I also took a sip. I avoided eye contact, afraid of what they will say or judge me. I could feel a pair of eyes in my neck, I turned my head a little and saw Louis giving me a weird look. 

"Yes I've kissed a boy. so what? It didn't mean anything. Im not gay." I said a little to fast. maybe I wasn't gay, but Im pretty sure that I was bi. They just didn't needed to know that. 

"Okay my turn" Louis said "Never have I ever had a friend with benefits?" 

Zayn quickly drank of his beer. We gave him a chocked look, he just winked at us. 

"okay never have I ever been in love" Niall said. 

I was about to take a drink, but was I in love?  wasn't it just a little crush? Both Liam and Zayn drank. Fuck that, I took a quick sip. 

"WHAT WHO THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN IN LOVE WITH HARRY STYLES?" Louis yelled. I gave him a wink and said. "that's fore me to know, and for none of you to find out" 

Zayn gave me a 'you need to tell me' look. I just shaked my shoulders, and continued the game. 

We've be playing for about an hour, until I was done with my 4 beer. I was a little drunk, but not so drunk. "I'm tired, im going to bed" I said. 

I wasn't tired, yes I was tired. But in a other way. I was tired of not knowing what I felt. 

Louis pov:

I looked at harry saying goodnight to the other boys, I felt my arms out so he could give me a hug, but he just gave me a smile and walked right past me. That was weird, why wouldn't he hug me? The conversation from earlier was going on in repeat in my head. 

"Never have I ever kissed someone from the same sex" 

harry took a sip of his drink, and looked up to 4 staring boys. 

"Yes I've kissed a boy? So what? it didn't mean anything, Im not gay"  

"never have I ever been in love" 

harry took a sip again. harry was in love?  "WHAT WHO THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN IN LOVE WITH HARRY STYLES" I yelled at him. 

"Thats for me to know, and for none of you to find out."  what? why couldn't we know? 

(end of flashback) 

I still couldn't believe harry have been in love, and I've never known. I could hear some music coming from Harrys room, so he wasn't asleep. I walked over to his room, and opened it a little bit. 

"haz? Are you awake?" I said quiet. 

"Yea im awake, Whats up Lou?" he said with a tired voice.  

what was I gonna say? Oh yea. 

"who are you in love with?" I said hoping he will tell me. 

"I- uhm. that's a long time ago, im not in love with the her any longer" he said hesitating a little. 

"o-okay, who were you in love with?" I asked

"that doesn't matter, go to sleep Lou" he said turning around so he slayed with his back again me. I played down next to him, slowly closing my eyes, thinking about who the lucky girl could  possible be.

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