Poems

Thoughts

the thoughts of you constantly run through my mind
what could have been if i hadn't made my mistake
"was i enough"
"was i actually happy"
"do i still love you"
the answer to those questions are all yes
sometimes i sit alone in the dark thinking
thinking about what would have happened if we never met
thinking about what would have happened if it had gone any longer
what could have happened if it was still us against the world like you promised.
what could have been if you still loved me.
i guess we will never know.
and perhaps the memories and thoughts will stay.
and me pronouncing certain words the way you used to.
or saying phrases you say way too often
or re listening to the songs that you once introduced to me
the thoughts of you and me still circle my mind like a spinning top on a table
some days they overwhelm me to the point where i struggle to breathe
and some days i'm just to distracted to notice the empty gap that you once filled
i must admit.
i miss you.
and the memories will forever live in my mind.
but you know.
their just thoughts.