The Other Side

Chapter 1

NILJA(ni-ja)

"I often wondered how people just publicly loved on each other but turn around an cheat on them in private you kno wha im sayin? I fa one have only been in one relation and that damn nigga wasn't shit to began with. nigga found interest in a bitch dat did een want his bitch ass from the jump yet he left a real bitch fa ha. I mean I cant blame him I prolly would have left his ass fa her too, not sayin she look betta but you know dat ass was fat and them titties was sitting right. ian een gone front my shit I got a thang fa girls been had em, only reason I went out with ole boy was because I was bored of the single life and he was there. I personally grew up alone and by myself and I was coo with it, ian have the fine ass niggas that wanted to talk to me because as far as they concerned I wasn't interesting if ian let em fuck. I like thug books, being alone, singing, and my all time favorite collecting hoes. they all girls but yk its like a friendly relationship nun serious. ian neva been in love and as far as im concerned ian trynna find it. I cant sit there and just be loyal to one person I gotta find different people that interest me."

I stopped writing in the diary my therapist gave me when I went to the last session. I closed the diary and hid it inside my pillow. I got nosey ass family members so its mandatory that I hide my damn stuff from them. if I don't my secret gets out, and boom ww3 starts. ian made no friends since ive been living hea. by hea I mean Houston texas, my momma moved me down here my freshman year of highschool. to say I hate it here would be a lie cause it better than the cold winters, they got they weird days when they like the winters and when they wanna be burning hot but none the less its pretty decent own hea. after I hid my diary I got my hygiene products and went in my bathroom I had connected to my room. I put my stuff down and just looked in the mirror disappointed in myself. ion get it....why I gotta be the gay one in the family. errbody perfectly fine in like the opposite gender and im the odd one out. people tell me don't let what happened to you affect your view on the opposite gender but they don't understand that I didn't choose to like girls it just happened. I like the way they look you know, I like ass I like titties not niggas, now don't get me wrong it do be some fine ass boys I see but it don't mean ima go entertain them. I took my clothes off and got into the shower taking care of the stuff I had to take care of and when I was done I wrapped the towel around my body and walked out my bathroom. walking into my room I forgot my window was open I dropped my towel and pulled my bra and panties on just staring at my body that I didn't like.

"aye ma if you don't want muthafuckas seein ya body I think you best ta close ya curtains" a voice called out from outside my window. when I looked over I seen a light skinned tall girl with pink plumped lips and a curly fro looking at me through the window from the next house. im guessing that shes new because ian neva seen ha before. she smirked and closed her curtains while I stood there muggin the fuck outta her window. she could've at least told me her name. I finally looked away from the window and proceeded to put on the basic fit I had for today black joggers, a white tee, and my all-star 1's. its only been a couple of days since school started so theres no need to dress fancy for bitches ian gone remember in 10 years. I left my window open to let out the weed smell that lingered around in my room. I grabbed my bookbag and left out my room while closing the door behind me.

"NILJA EMIRAL WILLAMS GET YO ASS DOWN HERE NOW!"

" ight damn ma you aint een gotta do allat for real" I said to her in a calm voice while walking down the stairs with my little brother trailing behind me.

"what did I tell you bout smokin that shit in my house?" she said with her back towards me. I bent down picking up my baby brother and put him in one of chairs. and walked over to the cabinets and got his cereal.

"what I do again is none of your concern, you told me as long as I provide for myself what I do in my half of the house is my business and I intend for it to stay that way." I picked his bowl and spoon up while getting the milk out the fridge. I set it down on the table preparing his breakfast for him.