Onshots Smut/Fluff

🥃Tododeku🥃

Todoroki POV
mentions and some actions of death, blood, depression, other topics revolving such things.

I slouched back down against the side of the bed staring out the bright window rubbing at my eyes that burned i felt a weight on my shoulder but i wouldn't look. I would see something I didn't want to remember. It was just yesterday, or maybe it was last week. She was here we were together on the same bed everything was fine. It didn't need to end like this ok? There was no need and its all my fault its my fault how is this fair it isn't and it shouldn't. Everyone tells me that it will be ok and it wont.

"Sho..." A soft voice asked which made me shoot my head up a frown at the green haired boy who made his way into my room. He looked at me softly and sat with me, I hadn't said almost anything to him, I felt bad but there was nothing much I could think to say to him right now.

"Have you eaten?" He asked I just shook my head at him, he frowned but nodded at me and kissed my forehead making me sigh and close my eyes. I know he was trying to help.. Last time I saw him i yelled at him, i probably upset him. I was just frustrated and I was emotional but he didn't even do anything wrong it was my fault.

"Im sorry" I whispered, he atleast deserves some sort of sorry.

"Sho its ok, what happened was not your fault you just weren't sure how to handle your emotions." He smiled at me.

"Will you eat if I get you something?" I thought about it but shook my head which made him frown but I couldn't help it. I had lost appetite granted maybe that is what was making me hallucinate of her.

I look to my left as I felt him sit with me looking out the window.

"You know... Even though your father separated you all when you were a child... The time I knew her she talked greatly of you. She loved to hang out with you when she was finally able to. She talked and could probably do so forever about how you totally cheated in uno" he laughed which made me smile a little watching him.

"When we first started dating I thought it was just crazy and honestly for a while I had assumed you had just said yes because you didn't know how to say no... I must've been blind or atleast that is what she said since she told me how your eyes seemed to sparkle when you looked at me and how you smiled more than she had ever seen... When she told me that I remember bursting into tears and blabbering thank yous because even if I was blind she helped me see and it made me feel so relieved and I couldn't help but hug her and cry. I don't know if she knew why I said thank you but she sais your welcome anyway." He smiled at the memories I didn't know of and looked at me grabbing my hands in his own.

"She loved you she really did and I know her time for you wasn't wasted... You shoulda heard how proudly she spoke of you... She really loved you and im sure she would hate to see you think its your fault when it wasn't, you couldn't have possibly known..."

"I see her..." I whisper back and he tilted his head furrowing his eyebrows.

"I feel a pressure on my shoulder like a hand and everytime i look back its almost like a ghost is there for a split second before she vanishes and im left confused..." He watched me carefully muttering to himself thinking like he usually does before responding.

"Well... My mother had always told me the hardest death is the ones you love, and when they pass they haunt you. Some they will haunt forever, but she says that it isn't their choice. That the person haunted is the carrier of their soul, and the reason they are there is because the holder cant let them go. They dont exactly suffer but my mother believes its better to let them be free from this cruel world and to go up to the heavens or whatever is waiting for us... Maybe nothing but just maybe.. There is a place where they must go but they cant go with the holder not letting them go... Maybe that is all just foolish but Im not so sure... But if it is you need to learn slowly to let her go. It isn't losing her, she will always be apart of you. As Long as her memory lives on in you she will forever stay in heart and mind and that's the important part. You don't have to let go right now because thats probably impossible but one day... You need to let her spirit rise. She lived a happy life shoto and im sure she wants you to live yours, and when our time has run out, we will say hello to her once more." He finished kissing my cheeks as tears flowed from both our eyes, we hugged on the ground infront of the window. We both loved her. She was beautiful, and one day I will let her go and fly above, and see her when my time has past. I will forever love you.

Wooow how sad for my oneshot back here 😅

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