Beautiful evil soul

A nightmare

Zellone had just found a shirt of baileys that makes him think he is someone from the past. But is that a good thing?

Could he really, no that's not possible.
How could the man I love have moved here and now I'm his roommate that's just not possible.
There's no way on earth it could be him and he wouldn't even like me now I'm a guy so he would never know it's me...
"what am i saying it's not him".
Just ignore it zellone you stupid idiot how could you let yourself think that!
I really need to get this out of my head I should probably just go to sleep...
"What are you doing loser"
"Hey zellone how was your day do you want to watch a movie with me".
"What are you reading?"
"Can I have that? NO? To bad hahaha!"
"Watch out!!! ARE YOU OKAY"
"I'll take care of her!"
"Please don't hurt yourself okay.?"
"I promise I'll see you when I get back."
"I want to give you something"
"I can't kiss you."
"I promise."
"I'm sorry"
  ________
"| I love you |"
  |•••••••••••|
  ——————
"No I don't like you."
"I'm sorry"...

"aaAAAHHHHHHH"
[huff huff huff]
It was a nightmare it was all him I haven't seen him in years but I know it's him.
I can not let him find out who I am I don't know if I could handle him finding out.
I'll make sure he never knows it's me I guess it's time for another piercing I'm not gonna be able to go back to sleep.
Where are my headphones I need music if I'm gonna do this.
Im so glad I have my own bathroom I don't have to worry about waking him up.
Wow I can dim these lights thats really nice hmm what do I wanna listen to ooo my favorite playlist.
Okay this spider hoop looks good where's my needle.

As zellone starts digging through his bag he cuts his finger on something.

[ahhggghhh]
[HHHUUuuuuhh]
"What was that!"
It sliced my finger ah my razor blade.
[Huhhh hhuuuhh huhhfh]
This isn't good I'm dissociating again oh god not good not good not good I'm gonna pass out
"stop panicking"
"your gonna be fine breathe"
"breathe breathe breathe breathe"

That triggered bad memories and past trama reminding him of his scars.

I need to feel more pain I thought the piercing would be enough but now I want to do it.
I need to feel something anything...

(TRIGGER WARNING)

Zellone begins pressing the end of the blade into his his skin dragging up his thigh over and over
"Aah"
[mmahhh]
This feeling always turns me on god what's wrong with me ughh now I'm so fuckin horny and I can't get him out of my head the way his hair covers his eyes and his jaw is so sharp I wanna trace every part of his muscular body god I want him so fucking bad oh this is not good.
[huff huff] [ughh] [nnngh]...

I guess I'll go eat some breakfast Bailey probably isn't up yet it's probably best to try to avoid him as much as I-"good morning zellone!"
"Aahghhh"
"Ooop I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you I'm kind of an early bird"
Great so much for that plan-
"Good morning Bailey"
"How was you first night are you comfortable?"
"Yea it's great this place is so nice how did you find this at such an affordable price?"
"Well I actually lived across the bridge and one of my friends moved here and told me about it and well here I am."
This is coNFIRMATION THAT HE IS MY BAILEY.
He really moved all the way over here and now I've become his roommate.
"Hey zellone what's your last name, are you related to anyone named Azel?"
Oh god he. He figured out... he. He figured it out. What do I do... I'm panicking I'm gonna faint oh god no huh huh huh breathe breathe.
"Uh hum no"
"Oh uh okay"
"Why do you ask"
"Well you came from across the bridge to and not may people have the last name Mortala."
Should I just tell him... no I can't, but...