How it works
Its like a cycle it can change daily weekly or monthly
sometimes it makes me sad just sad all the time though nobody ever seems to notice guess my own fault though huh
sometimes it makes me just like very unmotivated like to much to even get out of bed brush my teeth eat open my eyes or the worst wash the 12 cups 8 plates and 3 bowls in my room on my floor under the bed on my desk one time it was so bad that I reused my cereal bowl for apple juice and other beverages for 3 days.
sometimes it just makes me numb occasionally for months on end
numb is sometimes my favorite because I can turn it on an command the downside is I can't turn it of though in though some times I put myself through emotional or physical pain to just feel something.
I use humor to cope.
my mind likes to get rid of memories if they hurt or if they're boring or unnecessary or to happy like if when I think of them it makes me relies how sad I am I get more sad or if I feel like I can never feel that happy again it just sort of deletes it.
