Sidnaaz - The Warrior Princess

PART - 4

Holaa lovelies so here comes my next update...
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Take care of yourself and your loved ones...

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So it's a new day ,
Friday,
Everyone woke up and were sitting and talking in garden with chai and nashta...

Sidharth was thinking how to approach shehnaaz,
He was not at peace with the sudden changes and was praying it to be dream...
He has a new determination to talk to shehnaaz..he came searching for her in the washroom area where she was most of the time nowadays.....

Here shehnaaz after the bath sat on the balloon bed in the washroom area ..
She was lost in her own thoughts,

SANA POV :

Bhagwan ji mai hi kyu ???
Hamesha har vari mai hi kyu?
Maine kya bigada tha kisi ka jo aap mujhe aisi saja de rahe ho..
maine to kabhi bhi kisi ka bura nahi chaha..
phir mere sath ye sab kyu....
Mujhe phir se uss andheron me nahi jana..
mai ab ji nahi paungi, mai apni amma ko diya vada nahi tod sakti par aap toh mujhe iss dard se aajad kar sakte ho naa? .. please babaji mujhe aapke pass , amma ke pass bula lo mere me aur takat nahi bachi ladne ki.... Aap humesha mujh se sabkuch cheen lete ho jin jin logo se mai pyar krti hu aap unko mujhse door kar dete ho... Kya mai sachme pyar ke kabil nahi hu...bataye na...aisa kya paap kiya hai maine jo aap sabko cheen lete ho , door kar dete ho jab mujhe unki sabse jyada jarurat hoti hai , pehle bhai, phir amma , phir parivar , phir mera vajud aur ab mera pyar...
Kya chahte ho aap mujhse bata do please mai thak chuki hu khudko smjhate smjhate , iss duniya se ladte ladte , unn andheron ka samna karte karte, ab aur nahi Saha jata.... Shayad Sahi kehte hai log mai kisi ka pyar deserve hi nhi karti.. par maine toh ye baat man ki thi na rabji.. Isiliye toh Sidharth se vi maine dosti se jyada ummed nhi ki thi par shayad kismat hi khrab hai meri.. shayad mai dosti bhi deserve nahi karati..shayad meri zindagi me akelapan aur dard hi likha hua hai..Accha hai sidharth ne mujhe khud vajah de di usse dur hone ki, mai nai chahti mere vajah se mere pyar ko dard ho...mai nahi dekh sakti usako takleef me..
Mai mere sidharth ko bohot acche se janti hu..
Janti hu usne jaan bujke nahi kaha gusse me vo bol deta hai aisi baate jisse samne vala usse dur ho jaye..aur vaise bhi usne pehle hi bohot Saha hai apni jindagi me mai usse aur takleef nahi dena chahti...
mera kya hai meri to adat hai.. Har roj har pal markar jeene ki adat daal li hai maine khud ko...ye dard , ye andhera apna sa lagta hai aur lage bhi kyu na ek vahi to sath raha hai mere kbhi chodkar nahi jata..andhero me sukoon sa milata hai.. koi dard nhi .. koi shor nhi.. koi sawaal nhi .. koi jawab nhi .. na koi takleef denevala.. bas mai aur meri tanhai..
She was loosing herself again... darkness was engulfing her she was craving it....

And at that moment someone entered the washroom area..Sidharth came there looking for her and saw her lost in her own thoughts and slowly her eyes turning blank...he got scared and didn't know what to do so he did what came in his mind at instant... he immediately shook her... But she wasn't responding...he shook her vigorously and screamed her name and then she came in senses....

Sana : huhhh... kya_ kya hua ?
           
She asked perplexed , he cupped her face in concern and said ,

Sid : Shehnaaz tu thik hai? kya hua baby.. tu kahi kho si gayi thi.. haan?

Shehnaaz realised that she was loosing herself and Sidharth unknowingly helped her ...for a second she forgot everything and hugged him to her dear life .... And Sidharth was confused but he hugged her back and caressed her hair whispering sweet nothings ...

Sid : kya hua baby.. Hey hey ..it's fine ...sab thik hai..mai hu yaha..mai hu na..kuch nhi hua jaan.. shant hoja...kya hua meri jaan..look at me shehnaaz...hmm.. sab thik ho jayega jaan mai hu na mujhe batao baby kya hua...