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Of Blue hydrangeas and tears

Seth had looked at Victoria briefly before turning his head away.
Victoria simply stared.

The purple haired woman opened her mouth, only to close it back again. "Ah... I guess you betrayed me huh?" She said not knowing how to process this, she didn't feel sad, angry or in pain. There wasn't an emotion she could feel right now, it was just empty.

Seth stared at her with an unreadable expression, he had expected her to lash out, cry give some sort of reaction. But she didn't, she was completely blank as if still trying to understand the situation.

Victoria truly didn't know how to feel currently, she had expected to breakdown or snap at him, nobody took betrayal well. "I trusted you, truly I did." Victoria said as if stating a fact. The fact that he had betrayed her really hadn't settled in yet.
Her red eyes glanced at Seth briefly before looking away, she turned around and walked back. "We won't be associating with each other in the future anymore I presume, now goodbye." Victoria said walking away. Leaving Seth on the rooftop, with a pained expression.

-

It was Saturday when Victoria found out about the betrayal. On Monday she came to class a bit dazed, it had continued on until Thursday, Lillian and Ray knew about what happened and could only wince in pity and sympathy, trying to make Victoria better. It wasn't really working out all that well to be honest.
Even with everything the two girls tried Victoria still seemed to be in a daze, which lead to more missions on hold because their leader had her head in clouds for the past days.

Victoria was walking down the hallway alone, still seemingly in a daze. She thought back to what happened, she prided herself in being logical and level-headed which was somewhat true, just not at this moment.
She truly wondered, why had he betrayed her? Why had she trusted him? When trusting people only gets you so far. Why hadn't she found out he was betraying them? With all her IQ and logic she still couldn't find out why. Victoria was terribly confused, why? Just why had he betrayed her? Was the other side really that tempting? Was she not good enough?

It really hadn't sunk in yet that he had betrayed her-

Oh, oh he had betrayed her.

It had just sunk in the moment she was saying it didn't, and the feeling that came with it was not all that great. When the realization fell on her, it fell hard. She felt herself shaking, hurriedly she ran to the shared dorm she lived in with the other two.
Running she felt tears running down her face, a constant why why why why penetrating through her mind.

Victoria felt confused, so so confused and lost. She felt pained, but she couldn't bring it in herself to hate him. With all her IQ she really didn't know, honestly emotions were a bitch. Why couldn't she stay deadpan and stoic, she just had to fall in-love, invest her feelings in said love, and get betrayed. Not her brightest moment she'd admit, but then again despite being smart, she did do some stuff impulsively. This one was definitely in the 'some stuff' category.

Reaching her room she went in and shut the door violently. Victoria touched her face, she felt the hot tears streaming down her face, why? She had asked again.
A chocked sob sounded out in the empty room, inhaling and exhaling repeatedly as hot tears streamed down her face.
Victoria couldn't find it in herself to hate him, even after everything. It was painful, knowing that they were the person causing you pain yet knowing you couldn't hate them.

She didn't speak words, only letting the sounds of her crying and chocked sobs escaped her lips. Despite that her mind was racing trying to find an answer as to why? So many questions, that all started with why.
It was painful, she feel her heart beating in her chest, she could feel her cheeks getting sticky from the tears, she could feel the drowsiness that was over-taking her. She felt to much emotion than she was used to, she felt and expressed to much, she wasn't used to it.
Her father had always told her love was vain, it was cruel in the most selfish and twisted of ways. That it hurt more than any physical torture would.

And for once Victoria had found that her agreeing to her father's words.

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She had finished crying, now just feeling overall tired, exhausted emotionally, mentally and physically from everything. She saw the blue hydrangeas outside her window, yeah a nap would be nice.