First Love || WheeTae

14

I came back at the house with a heavy heart. I don't know but my heart feel so heavy after knowing the truth. Now, i can fully remember who i am and where did i came from. I should be happy right now because i already know my real identity but why do i feel like this?

The moment i knew i have a fiancè and my marriage is getting nearer, my heart broke into pieces. For the moment i stay here, Wheein fills me. The emptiness i am feeling is all gone because of her. But now that i already know the truth, i think i should stay away from her. I am engaged for goodness sake!

"Oh! You're already there? Come here, drink some water. I also boiled some corn so go and get some."

My deep thoughts were shut down by the girl i'm just thinking about. Wheein is standing on the door with a smile plastered in her face, but seeing her smiling face hits hard now. I know i can't be with her. I know i can't because i am already committed deeply on someone. I just heave a deep sigh and bring down all the woods and the axe. The ring is still on my hands and i'm gripping hard on it because i can't say it to her yet.

"Hmm. I'll just take a bath."

Jiyong is already asleep and here i am talking to the moon. I don't know Wheein's whereabouts, maybe she's already asleep. I've been distant to her earlier and i hope she doesn't noticed it. I am very confused right now and i don't know what to do except for distancing myself to her. She just makes me question my loyalty to Jennie.

I grab my hair so hard while trying to stop screaming. I am so confused. If i have a fiance, then why aren't they finding me? Do they already forget about me? Hell no. It's just been a month and i'm sure my friends are finding where i am.

"Are you alright?"

A cold hand touches my nape as i am lost at my own thoughts. I look at her and see that she's hiding her hand on her back. I don't know what she's doing but i am pretty sure she is hiding something.

"Hmm, yeah. Why are you still awake? You need some rest."

She just smile at me and sit beside me. We both look at the stars and secretly admiring the amazing view. I look at her and i saw her smiling, but her eyes shows the opposite. Her eyes look so sad.

"I know that you already know the truth, Taehyung."

Those are the words that break the ice between us. Words that i didn't know will be painful. I am not happy nor sad after remembering my memories, i am confused.

"I know that you already know that you are engaged."

I can barely hear her voice because it starts to quiver. I look down and bit my lower lip. I don't know what to say.

"The ring. I saw the ring in our room earlier when you took a bath. I know that your memories already came back."

She say those words while looking at the night sky, smiling. I don't know but my heart aches at the way she smiles.

"Honesty, i already saw the ring when we look at your car last time. I just didn't tell you because i want you to know it yourself."

This time, i was surprised. If she already knew, then she should have told me. So i prevent myself from falling..

"And i didn't know that was a bad decision. I let my selfishness fool us. I was blinded by the fact that you will stay here with us. Because you made us feel so good to the point that we can't let go anymore.."

And there, a tear roll down from my eye. I also don't want to let go.

"Taehyung, all we had here are just temporary. While what you have there is your fate."

She slowly hold my hands and put a thing that she was holding earlier. I lift my head and look what it is.

"Go back to where you came from, Taehyung. I know they are already looking for you."

A bus ticket. She already bought me a ticket. My lone tear turns into a river of teats until it turns to a quiet sobs. I put my hands on my face and try to hide my crying face at her.

"N-no..you d-didn't need to do this–"

"You are already getting married, Taehyung! And even though we want to hold each other, we can't! T-taehyung, we c-can't..."

Her voice cracks as she resist her tears from flowing down. But she failed. Her tears freely flow and we both look at each other at despair. Why is fate so cruel?

"Y-yes! We are happy when we are together. Yes! We want to hold each other until forever. Yes! I love you so much that it already h-hurts..But we can't be together. We both know that."

I can't help myself but to hug her so tight. There, we cry our hearts out. She hug me back and that just made me bawled my eyes out.

"But i don't want to let you go–"

I can't continue what i am saying when she crashed her lips into mine. It feel so fast yet so magical. I froze on my spot while our lips are still on contact. She slowly pulls away and look directly to my eyes. Her eyes..her gaze that made me fall to her.

"But we need to let go."

When two people love each other but can't make that work...that's the real tragedy.