Guys im so sorry I haven't updated in awhile and well I have been going through a lot I have been suffering with my depression and it recently got to the point to where im now cutting myself.
I think it got to this point because it turns out that the girl I was dating who I loved dearly never wanted to date me in the first place and she said that she dated me because she didn't want to hurt me but that just hurts me more.
And turns out one of my older brothers who I used to love hanging out with thinks I'm acting depressed for attention and said that my ex did the right thing because she didn't want to hurt me this makes me feel like he never dated someone and understands the pain and suffering its like when you find out your BFF was only friends with you because they want you for something and once they have it they leave you in th dirt.
And my mom she is really homophobic transphobic and just hates the people in the LGBTQ+ community and I tried to tell her I was non-binary multiple times but she just says "(dead name) your too young to understand your not non-binary its one thing for your sister to choose to be a boy but your a girl you can't be non-binary".
I feel like no one except my brother who is one year older than me understands because we are both in the same situation
Im always told that I had a good childhood because my little sister and me had the same childhood we may have grown up together but we grew up very differently.
Anyway just had to go on a rant thanks for reading my rant I just hope you guys can understand my issues.
