From Within the Walls|Attack on Titan|

Until the End

"YOU IDIOT!" I yelled at him, in the airship, after rescuing him from the jaws of death. "Nevermind the fact that you left for a year, not one word until that letter, and when I found you, YOU KILLED CIVILIANS, CHILDREN!"

He sat in silence, unwrapping the bandage around his eye, his hair framing his face, covering his features.

With his silence, I felt enraged, how dare he not speak? How dare he stay quiet? How could he betray me like that?

"THE FIRST TIME I SAW YOU AGAIN, I HAD TO FIND YOU STANDING THERE!"

He stared at me, his green eyes meeting mine, filled with an emotionless void, that held so much power, but so much pain at the same time. I could feel my eyes well up in tears as I stared back at him, betrayal, lies, and pain.

"I waited for you," I whispered, dropping to the floor, sinking to my knees.

"I waited for you, for months, hoping for a sign, hoping for anything," I said faintly,

"ANYTHING! ANYTHING TO SHOW THAT YOU CARED!" I shouted.

He just took it, and that hurt me more than him yelling at me,

"Please just say something." I continued, quieting down again.

"Anything."

He looked away from me, staring towards the window.

"I couldn't." that was all he said, not explaining further.

"Why." I questioned him.

"I just couldn't"

I laughed, bitterness filling me,

"So you just couldn't huh?"

"Just like how I couldn't let you go after that year." I whispered, tears finally breaking through, spilling down my cheeks.

"Do you know how much that hurt?" I stared at him, finding his features, the old and new ones.

"Did you know how much it hurt to realize that the person I once loved was gone?"

"Yes." he answered, still looking away, his hand resting against the sill of the airship window.

"Yell at me."
"Hit me."

"Call me a monster." and his voice broke slightly when he said that, but quickly recovering.

"Do whatever you want, if it makes you feel better."

He spoke the words loud and clear, no hint of remorse, or in fact any other emotion in it, and that was what made me realize, he was broken, and was never going to be repaired.

"I will never call you a monster Eren."I spoke with clarity,
"No matter the things you have done, You will never be a monster."

I answered him, standing up, brushing off my black uniform, the metal clanking as I bent my knees.
"I'm sorry." I said, walking away from him, determined to leave.

"Wait." he exclaimed, getting up, grabbing my hand before letting go and stopping himself, before grabbing onto me.

I stared at him, this time different, as his eyes laced with sorry, as if knowing something that I didn't, as if hiding some knowledge that I wouldn't know until it happened.

"I love you."

"What?" I scoffed, uninterested in his nonsense.

"Let go."

"Please." He whispered, his breaths coming out uneven, as he fought with his inner demons.

"I'm sorry."

"I'm sorry we don't have enough time," he continued.

"I'm sorry that I left, but I promise it is for a purpose,"

I scoffed and started to retort but he cut me off,

"Please let me finish, and I promise to leave you alone."

"I-" he stopped himself.

He straightened his tan uniform, and suddenly the airship room felt so tiny and cramped, even if it was just the two of us inside, the walls were closing in on me.

I was never truly angry at him, I could never be, just confused, and hating myself for loving him. In truth I would follow him to my death, I would love him until the end of time, no matter what his idiocy and ideals would bring him to do.

"I love you, and I always will."

"I wish I could stop my idiocy and stupidity but-" he caught himself again.

"But, I want to stay with you, forever."

I stared at him, sincerity in his eyes, and my heart softened, forever being bound to the boy, or the man Eren Jeagar.

"I-"

The door burst open and a teenage girl burst in, holding a rifle, and I instinctively stepped in front of Eren, arms splayed, as he reached out but was to late as she shot me, feeling the impact I crumpled into Eren, the soft fabric of his shirt against my face, as I felt warm and cold at the same time.

A group of scouts dragged the girl away as Eren held onto me, trying to stop the wound, yelling for an medic. 

Someone tied a tight bandage around my waist, but I knew that they couldn't do anything before we reached the ground.

"You idiot, You stupid idiot," This time it was Eren repreminding me as he held me, trying desperately to keep me close.

"Please hang on, please, please, please," He begged.

"Please, Please, PLEASE!" He held onto me, holding me tight in his embrace, one that I hadn't felt for a long time.

I stared at him with sad eyes, accepting my fate, glad to be in his arms again.

"Eren."

He looked at me, tears in his eyes, he was trembling, shoulders were shaking heavily.

"Thank you."

I thanked him for the years he had spent with me, the years of beauty and pain, one that was brighter because of his presence.

My life flashed before my eyes. I saw the first time we met, when we were so young, in the cadet corps, and he promised he would eradicate all the titans in the world, and now he succeeded.

Our first embrace, one so warm and comfortable, one that I would remember a lifetime.

The first time we kissed, the taste of citrus, and the smell of pine, in my nose again.

The times we laughed, the times we cried, the times we fought.

The good and bad as I relived those moments again, ones that I would cherish now, to my grave.

I found his green eyes, staring into mine, as he too accepted my fate, his handsome features, forever burned into my mind.

"I love you to the end."

And it was true until the end.

A/N:

Semi angst again, I am on a roll!

If you haven't yet, please check out "The Moon and The Stars," its my longest chapter, more than 3000 words.

Hope you enjoyed.