Diary Of Neesha

chapter 3

Dear diary,
So it's the next day at school and I'm in science class when the teacher asks us to pair up for a lab, now obviously Patrisha and I will pair as always, but something out of the blue happened......Chad came up to Pattisha and asked her a question, I thought maybe he was asking to pair up with her but no he asked her if he can pair up with me.
Now I've known Patrisha for all my life, I know when she's mad, sad, glad, being a retard etc etc, and even though she said yes with a big smile on her face I knew she was disappointed and felt rejected.
Normally a best friends' first instinct is to decline because you know your best friend likes him or whatever but a girl wanted her chance with a boy, I mean I don't care if you hate me but it is what it is.
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So me and Chad were having a blast,we were laughing and talking etc etc, to the point where the teacher almost separated us, but I don't know I kind of felt a connection, it's weird, it's like he was my other half or something, and that's weird coming from because I don't do the love thing, no not at all,it cringes me ewww......anyways from when we were talking I learned a lot about him, he has an older brother going here, he's part Latino, etc etc.He even gave me his phone number..eeeeeeek.
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I felt bad for Patrisha because I caught her staring at us a lot but I pretending I didn't see her, like I don't want to be selfish but if we both like the same boy and he comes up to me and not you then girlll it's even woman for themselves sorry buu.
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So after school finally approached and since my brother was sick he didn't come to school so we had to walk with Zack, I know it's stupid, my brother doesn't trust me to walk home alone ugh,he says it's too dangerous, what if someone kidnaps me *rolls eyes*, I mean I'm not making that much of a fuss because I had the biggest crush on Zack growing up, and it's slowly rising sigh, he's so friggin gorgeous likeeee.
Anyways while  we were walking, Patrisha asked me to fill her in about the conversation Chad and I had in class; I really didn't want to because I know she would get jealous but if I didn't she would suspect something so I only told the things he told me about him so that she learns about him and try's to shoot her shot......you see I'm not that horrible.