Bokuakakuroken Oneshots

Rational (angst)

    A/N: This is my first one shot of them and also a vent so I hope you enjoy my hot garbage lol.

    T/W: Anxiety, Trauma response

    Three months ago, all four boys decided they were ready to find a living space with each other. It was stressful to find the apartment, between Kuroo going to school, Akaashi and Kenma's jobs and Bokuto's volleyball. But after three weeks they found the perfect place and moved in within a week.

    Bokuto is definitely the more outgoing one out of the four. He never hesitates to jump into action to try and make his lovers feel better with his goofiness. He harmlessly jokes around and gets loud when he is having fun and loves to converse and cuddle with his boys. Although the boyfriends love this overflowing ball of joy, his loud voice carries and when they are upset sometimes they just need time alone to think.

    "Hey Tetsu! Are you going to class?" Bokuto peered at Kuroo's lightly packed bag. Usually when he goes to class he will take a goofy looking hiking bag to fit all his textbooks.

    "Uh, no. I am going to study..." Kuroo shifted his weight. "Oh ok why don't you just study here? Isn't it a hassle to go somewhere else?"

    Kuroo looked at Bokuto and laughed "Babe you are way too chatty and loud, I would end up just getting distracted. I will see you later."

    "Oh... um bye I love you!" Bokuto quieted to a whisper, Kuroo closing the door. Kuroo must be so annoyed, I can't even shut my mouth so he can study. I am trying so hard to be quiet, did he say "I love you" back? No, he didn't... He must be so angry. He must feel forced to be with me-

    "No" Bokuto slapped his face lightly

    I can't start thinking like that, I just need to be rational not emotional.

    He turned his back to the door and walked down the hallway to see what Akaashi and Kenma were doing. The first door to his left was open and that was Kenma's streaming room. The 'airing' light was off which meant KenKen wasn't streaming yet so he burst into the room intending on scaring him.

    "Hey Hey HEYYYYY KEN K-!!!"

    "Bokuto!" Kenma's voice hissed. Bokuto looked around with a worried look.

    "Wh-What's wrong Ken Ke-"

   "Get out of my room, I am streaming!"

    "I-I'm sorry I thought you weren't streaming so I came to-" Kenma pointed towards the door with anger written all over his face. Usually Kenma would just point towards the door but today...

    It's ok he just needs some time alone, his anger wasn't at you. But what if it was. Did I ruin his stream? I need to make this right! No, leave it. Why am I like this? Can't I just stop doing this?

    He pulled and twisted the skin around his neck using his breathing techniques he learned from therapy to calm himself. He caught himself getting antsy and just tried to shake it off. With a shaky breath, he decided against going to see Keiji. He knew his boundaries and he was not prepared for someone to get mad at him again. Walking to the kitchen he grabbed out his phone and called Hinata.

    "Hello?"

    "Ah Hey hey hey Hinata!"

    "Oh Bokuto-san how are you doing?"

    "I am, well how are you?"

    "Good good, are you coming to practice today?" Bokuto thought long and hard. He knew that when he is upset he isn't exactly on his A-game.