My Brother's Best Friend (Completed)

Chapter 14

"Morning," Shaw said to me as I entered the kitchen.
He was sitting at the kitchen island, with a bowl of lucky charms in front of him.
"Morning," I replied.
I walked past him in a hurry to get to the last donut that was sitting on the counter. I knew that if I had left the room for even 1 second, it was very likely the donut would be gone.
"Don't worry about the donut," Shaw said, reading my mind.
I turned around and looked at him with the glorious chocolate donut in my hand.
I raised one of my eyebrows in confusion and he chuckled, "Levi left for the day to go spend time with his girlfriend, so it's just you and me."
Damn...
I didn't really wanna spend any alone time with Shaw. After him walking into my room last night with the stench of alcohol reeking off of him, and the clear look of baked in his eyes told me that he had been out drinking and doing weed.
"I won't bother you..." he added, "I know you don't wanna speak to me, or shit, even be around me at the moment. So I figured I'd give you your space. I'll probably hangout in my room for the day so you can use the house to your pleasing. Even though I might come down randomly for food, or a drink. But other than that I will be out of your way,"
He stood up from his chair and brought his dish over to the sink and dropped it in before walking away.
I was totally shocked by what just happened. I figured he'd wanna talk to me about last night, and that's why I was deciding whether or not I even wanted to come downstairs or not.
I knew he wanted to talk to me, but he was being respectful, and was giving me my space. And I was glad that he was doing so. But at tehe same tme, I wanyed to tlak to him about why he thought it was a good idea to do stupid stuff last night.
I wanted to have a true conversation with him about our so-called relationship. Even though nothing is going on, we both have feelings for each other, even though I'm not truly wanting to admit it to him.
I put my donut down, finally deciding to not waste any more time with not speaking to him about this. I headed upstairs and walked over to his room and softly knocked on his door.
He opened the door and looked at me, confused.
"Yeah?"
"I wanna talk to you, I think we need to have a sit-down conversation about this stuff that's been going on," I told him.
"Yeah, but the last time that we did, you freaked out and ran off. So...I'm not sure if that's exactly the best option,"
I sighed, "Please Shaw? I promise I won't run away again, I'll hear you out. As you need to hear me out as well." I said trying to convince him.
His face grew a small smile and he opened the door more ot his room and I entered. He shut the door behind him and I walked over and sat on his bed.
He followed in pursuit.
"So...what do you wanna talk about?" he asked me.
I robbed my arm due to the awkwardness. "I just wanna find out how you feel about this stuff, you know? I know we've spoken about it, and maybe we both just needed time to think things over because over the past few weeks. And I'm sorry I ran off, it was stupid of me to do so."
Shaw nodded, "Yeah, I'd like if we talked about this,"
I smiled because I was glad he was okay with talking about all of this and didn't just wanna drop it like most guys usually would.
"I have had time to think about it too, I wasn't sure if you wanted to talk about it, so I kinda left it alone. And after all that happened between us, I didn't want to bother you. You seemed upset with me and what I did to you with that other bitch, I knew you were done with me."
"Why did you want to hurt me like that?" I asked him.
"I was just mostly upset and wanted to feel better about myself. You hut me because I thought you had slept with that fucking asshole cooper. So I wanted you to feel the pain that I felt when I thought you had done that. I shouldn't have slept with ehr, and I truly regret it. I should've never started to drink and started to smoke. I regret that as well. I am so stupid and immature. I can't even comprehend why you liked me."
I looked at him and kissed his cheek, "I still like you Shaw. I always have. I just was upset with you when I found out you had slept with her. I felt like my heart was being stomped on once again. You first had hurt me by making me believe that you didn't care about me, but truly you didn't want to hurt Levi. But I had already fallen for you. I let my heart get ahead of me and I truly apologize. I shouldn't have run away, I was just upset and in a state of shock. I honestly thought that you would put Levi aside and want to try and be with me, which is totally selfish. And I now realize that. I also should admit that I did bring Cooper over to piss you off, and I apologize for that. I never did let him touch me though, every time he tried to flirt I would shut him down and he quickly stopped and understood that I wanted nothing like that from him."
"I expected that. I know you aren't like that, and I don't know why I let myself believe that you are. You are so innocent and kind and sweet. Nothing horrible and bad, not like those normal whores I seem to go to. And that's why I thought I didn't deserve you, yes I wanted to not hurt levi, but I didn't want to hurt you either. Youare so amazing, and kind, and sweet, and I worried that I would somehow destroy this amazing light that comes off of you. I just want to put all of this behind us, if you are okay with that? Everything that I have done, and said, I want you to forgive me, so we can move forward, and hopefully, try again."
Try again?
"Try again? I thought you didn't want to hurt Levi?" I asked him, confused.
"I don't. But I care so much about you, I see something with you. I know it may seem eairly, and stupid, but you are so amazing and I truly just don't want to let you go. So I do wanna try, whether it's selfish or not, but I think I deserve to be happy. He does seem to be turning a new leaf with you as well, so maybe he won't be as pissed,but if we try again, i'll have to 'chose' him over you, so if he wants to spend time with me or hangout, and we have plans I can't just drop him for you, I can't have him being suspicious, but he's also my best friend, and in the nicest way possible 'bros before hoes' ".
I chuckled at the terms and smiled, "I know, he needs to come first."
I looked at Shaw and he had a big smile on his face, filled with so much happiness.
I couldn't help myself, but I quickly went up to him and kissed him, and it felt so good to have his lips back on mine. I missed being close to him. He just made me feel so amazing.
all of the hatred I had toward him these past few days were gone, nhe was totally forgiven for everything he had done, but I wouldn't forget, yes he would be on this ice.
but I wanted him back, i've never felt such a true connection with someone. yes I grew up falling in love with him, but this has totally changed everything. finally being with him,a dn starting to get to know him has totally changed my point of view on all of this.
Shaw pulled away for a second as things were getting heavy, "I wanna spend as much time with you as possible before I head back to college in the next few weeks," he told me.
Shit, I had forgotten, he has to go back to college. It had totally slipped my mind that he had a life outside of this home. How would things even work? could we handle it? could I?
How would we ever be able to see each other when he is hours away and constantly around levi who is his roommate up there?
I looked at him, "Promise me that if we are still together by then, that nothing will change when you go back?"
Shaw nodded and kissed me again bringing me back down onto him.
I pulled away quickly, and smirked at him, "Show me how much you missd me" I whispered into his ear.