Accidental Attraction | venable x reader

Part 6

'Oh fuck I've fallen for her and I've fallen for her hard...'
I must have drifted of to sleep after hours of crying, because I was abruptly woken by someone shaking me.
"(Y/n) wake up wake up. You have 10 minutes till breakfast"
I shot up and looked to see Mallory stood by my bed.
"Oh god Mallory !!.... I know I will probably be punished but I don't feel so good . Could you let Miss Venable know I will be spending my day in my room"
"I- um okay . Let me know if you need anything" Mallory says scuttling out the door.
I couldn't bare to even be in the same room as that woman today, there was nothing wrong with me I just needed and excuse to be able curl up into a ball and cry in my bed.
Which is what I did, I curled myself up and the tears just flooded out.
I know I shouldn't feel this strong about it, but I could tell she felt something, that she somewhat felt how I did but then she just chucks me out. Uses me and chucks me out like a fucking piece of meat.
"Arghhhhh" I scream into my pillow to help release some tension. The crying must of worn me out as I fell back to sleep again.

I had the strangest dream , someone was apologising and stroking my arm, but I don't really remember it clearly so it obviously had to be a dream.
When I finally sit up, I look up and see that it's 8pm meaning I could have an hour to read in the library, no one goes in there which is what I like and it will get me out this room for a bit.
I can't be bothered to get dressed so i just throw on my robe over my purple silk nighty, and walk quickly down to the library trying to avoid anyone. Not that I don't want to see them it's just there will be questions that I just can't deal with answering today.
I make it into the library and start to browse through the shelves of books.
I finally pick out a book and take a seat on the sofa that is placed in the back corner of the library. I dive deep into the book that I don't even realise that I'm way past curfew now.
I'm suddenly snapped away from my book when I hear the door creak open and the sound I have been dreading the whole day, the sound of her cane hitting against the floor.
I didn't know what to do and was so shocked and hurt that I just froze not moving a muscle .
The sound of her cane got closer and closer until she was eventually stood in front of me.
So many thoughts and emotions were running through my head that I couldn't even bare to look up.
"Miss (y/n) do you know what time it is?" She eventually says after 2 minutes of awkward silence between us.
God why does she have to be like this, using all these formalities, acting if nothing happened between us and I know for a fact it did.
"No I don't" I reply bluntly still refusing to look up.
"It is in fact an hour past curfew and you should be in your room" she says continuing with her blank persona.
I just can't deal with this shit any longer, I finally look up to her and she is trying to hold her stern and cold face but I can see there is something else happening behind her eyes.
I stand up so we are now eye level and I just lose it . I can't control my thoughts and I just spill everything.
"What the fuck is your problem? How can you act as if nothing happened between us? That all of this shit is normal. You just used my like a toy. I maybe hope and dreamed that you felt somewhat like I did and that somewhere inside your dark and twisted mind that you had some type of feelings for me because it sure as hell sounded like it . How can you just do that to someone,play with their emotions then Chuck them away like a broken glass. I have fallen for you Mina and I've fallen for you hard and I just don't know what to do anymore" at this point tears were streaming down my face and I just couldn't bare to even hear her excuse so I ran past her and to my room without even giving her a chance to breath.
Once I reached my room I just threw myself on the bed and curled into a ball, whilst balling my eyes out.
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A/n: sorry this is short but I promise the next chapters will be worth it xxx
(Ps. I haven't proof read so tell me if there's mistakes x)