Forever

Prologue

I stand next to the window, looking out into the oncoming storm.

A drop of rain hits the window ever so slightly, at the same time my tear escapes my eye.

My mind ran wild an hour ago. Its whats been happening ever since...since him. If I dare let my thoughts run, I will break myself. So I just lock up my mind, and think about the things around me.

The dining room table is turned on its side, glass shattered everywhere. The bookshelf on the opposite side has fallen down, books scattered everywhere. The kitchen has a light smell coming from it, for a fire was alite at around 12pm. Its now 4pm

Oh and did I mention I can't sleep? I take two pills each night, but I still toss and turn like a crazed animal.

There's drops of blood trailing to where I am.

I cut my foot on the glass an hour ago. It didn't hurt one bit.

I'm a big girl.

I don't want to think, and I'm a coward that way. But really I don't care.

The next two minutes are filled with silence , and the silence is making me fall into the dark void again. Again and again and again.

The silence stretches, and I start to wonder.

I explore escapes, and plan something that no one would like.

If I do that one special plan, I know for sure I will be cast to hell. But I mean, I have already been through it.

It can't get worse, right?

Right?

I was saved once, and the scars on my wrists can show, but I don't think I will be saved again.

So that's a relief. But its scary.

Anyone going through what I've been through probably has been scared. Really scared.

So when I convince myself to go through my life one more time, I figure it will be scarier than to plunge through to death.

So that's exactly what I do.

And then, the darkness comes, and the storm goes with the waves of my mind.