Forever

Chapter One

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An annoying sound beeps and rings through my ears.

I reach across the small span between my bed and the table next to it. I fumble a bit, but finally manage to switch it off. Aunt May just HAD to get a little red clock that ended up waking me to reality every single fucking day.

I barely even sleep, and when I do, I end up waking, screaming and kicking. So I've been taking my pills. And trust me when I say, they are quite the drug.

I turn over and decide to go back to sleep, when my aunt calls me from downstairs. "Rosanna!! Get down here now! Your going to be late again!"

"I just got up! Its 6am! I won't be late!" I scream back.

"Don't make me come up there!"

"Fiiinnneee!!!" I drag out the word, whining, and pull myself out of bed.

I trudge towards my closet, and decide to wear black. My everyday color. I pull out a black hoodie, black skinny jeans and decide to wear a white T-shirt.

My mom bought me this one years ago, but it still fits me.

Tears spring to my eyes and I hastily rub away from the tears and take a deep breath.

Not today I thought to myself.

I grab my clothes and run to my bathroom.

Unexpectedly, I throw my clothes back down and heave into the toilet. In what seems like forever, I finally get back up, feeling horrible, and take a cold shower.

I get dressed, grab my school bag, and head downstairs.

"Morning sweetie. I made you some bacon? It used to be your favorite and I just thought that-" she starts saying, but I rudely interrupt.

"No thanks Aunt May. I don't feel like it" I try to soften the blow.

"You never feel like it"she says softly, thinking I never heard. I roll my eyes and grab my house keys and head towards the door.

"Have a good day hun'! Please make some friends, we didn't move here for you to be upset all the time!" She shouts happily, and I grimace when she mentions the move. Just because my parents died in our old house, doesn't mean she had to move here. I hate it here. But I try to make her happy, by saying that its okay. That no one is treating me like a freak at school. No ones saying I'm anorexic, or ugly, or make fun of my clothes.

I just try to seem okay. But really, I'm not.

I open the door and walk outside. I sigh when I realize its hot outside, but I don't even bother with it. Its almost as if I'm permanently cold, so I don't mind.

I look down at my watch, and see that its only 6:35am. And the bus arrives at 7am. So I walk slowly towards the bus stop, and sit down on the small bench that sits there. Opposite where I'm sitting, sits a park. The park looks abandoned, even though this is a popular area and definitely full of kids. But to think of it, there are plenty of parks in the upper part of the area. We sit round about the bottom of it, and no children live here. No wonder its so gloomy.

I look towards my right, and notice a figure coming towards me. I realize my phone was at home, so I start getting nervous.
I'm safe. I'm safe. I'm safe.

When people tell themselves something they supposed to believe it, but right now, I'm starting to freak out,

The sun at that moment, starts rising, and I'm thankful to see its just a teenager with a bag slung on one shoulder. He has a messy mop of brown blonde hair, hanging in his eyes. He is wearing a black leather jacket, and skinny jeans. Cuts are on the knees, and a white tshirt is underneath the jacket. His build is pretty skinny but muscular, and tattoos peek from under his T-shirt collar.

As he comes closer, I see that he is staring right at me, and he smiles, so I look down immediately.

I haven't taken any note to any boys since my parents...yeah, and I haven't tried. To be honest, I'm scared of them.

I've been scared ever since the incident.

So when he finally nudges me in the side, I realize that I hadn't been listening, and I flinched when he touched me.

"Hi? I just moved into this neighbourhood, I was just going to ask, the bus does stop here right?" He asks, and I finally look up into his eyes, and I see they are a brilliant green. His smile is wide, adorable really, and his nose has an odd shape, meaning it could have been broken before, or its just naturally like that. I hope for the second.

"Yeah.."I whisper so softly I doubt he heard, so I just nod.

"Do you go to Belleview as well?" He asks, and I look away.

I nod again, and he notices I haven't said anything, so he chooses the only legitimate question to get me talking,

"What's your name?" He asks politely, I start to shake my head, but like the polite person I am, I decide to answer.

"Rosanna" I say softly, but unlike before, he heard me.

The bus turns around the corner, and he stands up, so I do too.

"Nice to meet you Rosanna. I will call you Rose from now on," and just as the bus appears, he says his name,"I'm Ashton."

And with that, he let's me climb on the bus first, and I feel the light heat flow to my cheeks.